Well, I'm back here for that reason too, also without answers. Scared too. Not sure what advice to offer, but you are not alone, if that offers any consolation I don't know!
Seriously, I hope you find the support you are looking for, as do I - somehow. Time is meant to heal all. May only just be a bad patch. But I do not know you, so I can't say. Wish you all the best, and hope something good happens to make you feel better.
Good things are supposed to happen to good people. That's what I have been told. Happiness may be just around the corner.

HI
I suffer from depression too. I know that awful feeling. I'm feeling better by taking my prozac, prayers and my precious cat.
Do you take antidepressants? Do you have a pet? How about hobbies? I'm here for you.

i have sufered cronic depreshion all my life and right now i am in a 8 year bad depreshion and i am very frigal and have to work hard to feel good ..............i came looking for a place like this because i felt i needed more help than i was getting i needed to talk to people who knew what i was talking about ......................so you have come to the right place .........for suport and to talk if that is what you need to do ...........we cant keep things in it maks us sick sicker it does me i know that and i have seen it in others befor ..................do you hava counclour or a phicatrist ...................if not i think it would be a good idia .......i have a phicatrist for the past 8 years ..........i often wounder if i will ever get better but i have been dowen befor and goten better ..................i know the feeling ofbeing scared you might slip back i fight every day so that wont happen ..............the meds cant do it all by them selves we need to help them to .....................exersize is good if you can ...........riting a jurnal to it helped me when i was worse than this .........................some days i find i have to chang what i am doing if i am not doing well while doing one task than i change what i am doing to keep your mind bissey and engaged in somthing else besids thinking about how depresed you feel ...............with me my head doesent want to shut up ................crafts are good to do find somthing you are interested in and do that i have a place you might want to join if you havent already .......................i dont see the address here so i will give them your name and they caan ask you if you would like to join it is very up lifting ...........there are people who right books and poems and maney other crafts if you are not interested thats ok ..............just a thought ................well take good care of your self ..........god bless

I'm sorry it's getting worse. Have you tried going to a therapist or psychiatrist lately?

i do not have health insurance i have not had any in 4 years so i cant afford to see a counseler i do have a pet 2 cats and i sometimes spen quiet time with them i love to read and write but i never really have time for reading anymore and im always worried my roomates will find the stuff i have written i sometimes get dark thought about killing myself i dont wanna die but i do at the same time

Hi, you, and your depression!

I just rode my bicycle for 20 miles tonight. I am depression-free.

Thought that might help.