Please invisible, please don't talk that way. Please tell me why you feel that you are not worthy to be on this earth with the rest of us? What can I do or say to help pull you through this awful depression that you must be going through? You are being dragged into that black hole very far with the devil and I want to help pull you out. Please talk to me, or us. Hugs GB

I think we would all like to go in our sleep, but don't you want to do so much more before you go? I mean think about all of the things you have yet to do. Your goals, dreams. People you have yet to meet. Places you have yet to go. You have so many years ahead of you and so many possibilities. Think of that before you do something you can never ever take back. Just because you have been struggling doesn't mean it is always going to be that way. Always is a long time and so many things happen in that time. You don't know what life is going to be like 3 months from now let alone 3 years from now.

I am sorry for your suffering. You do not deserve it. You deserve a much happier life. But you can only get that life by living.

"Matter of often and time"....Sounds more like you want to punish yourself more then anything.. I've been there often. The main thing at the moment is that you are safe... Even if that does mean a stay in hospital... They do give us some time to think on where we want to go next in our life as we gather our strength a bit.

I am just so tired obeying an announced or embarrassments to others I'm tired of being me I hate me everything about me I'm tired.

Why do you feel you are a annoyance and a embarrassment? You are most defiantly being very very hard on yourself at the moment... Do you think you would benefit from more intense therapy that would help you grow more?

I find your name "invisible" to be interesting, because I've always been invisible. The more people around, especially family, the more invisible I felt. I'm not really invisible anymore, except when I want to be.
I understand your pain. How many nights have I prayed to die in my sleep and been disappointed the same number of mornings, because I didn't. Do it myself? Nah...But..thinking if something happened..a heart attack, etc....I wouldnt call for help.
I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting this. I'm tired of being here. My parents are gone. The man I loved and still love so very much is extremely happy with someone else, happier than he ever was with me. All but one of my pets are gone. My brothers couldnt care less and I doubt my nieces/nephew would notice. My sister, it would hurt. But she'd be ok.
I have a good job. good friends. I'm on meds and in counseling. But I'm finding lately, that I just don't care anymore. and I don't feel like going to the trouble to find a reason to care. I'm just tired. I have fewer years ahead than behind me anyway, so big deal. I'm ready and waiting. Got a feeling God wont go for it though. He's not through "coitusing" with me yet (big bang theory reference). So I will keep waiting