oh please don't talk that way. that is so sad. if you want to talk let me know. im here please tell me whats wrong.

I'm not even really sure I just feel so down maybe it's cause I'm sick on top of depression and I don't know if I even want or have the strength to fight anymore. I can't even work right know and that used to take up majority of my time but I'm starting chemotherapy next week. So they said it be best to take leave of abscence.

If you are sick on top of that maybe best to take a lot of you time. I always knew I was different then others also know I will die by my own hand.

Past performance is no predictor of future events. Life happens one day at a time. If I take good care of today, I find that tomorrow and yesterday just take care of themselves. Tell you what. Come back here when you are 45 and I am 80, and I will give you 2 big huggz; one for you, and one to share!!!

Self fulfilling prophecy's? or Coincidence? Please don't think the negative, okay? You have a nice long life left and what is most important right now, is that we make it a happy long life. We love and care about you and are here to help however we can, not to just hear ourselves talk. (Write) :-)

Gramy hit on something I was thinking about. Self fulling prophecy . I think when we keep something in the back of our mind, we tend to drift that way without even knowing what we are doing to ourselves. I hope that makes sense.

I never thought I would live past 25. I don't know why, but I truly thought I was going to die. After I lived to reach that age, my mind is set on me dying at 55. I hope not, I am almost there! But, this thoughts do stay in our mind, sometimes even when we don't realize it. And, they slowly cause us to drift in that direction.

Well that would be like me saying because I predicted the score of the hockey game then I could predict next week's powerball numbers.


The point is the two have nothing to do with each other. You happened to be right on one prediction, but it doesn't mean anything regarding the other. I never thought I'd live to see 30. I'll be 32 in May. It's just a negative thought caused by depression not based in reality.

That is ur depression talking. I understand how you feel. There's nothing wrong with being in the psych ward, the world is a hard place to be, unless u r lucky. Some of us aren't. It's hard to b strong, in ur case w chemotherapy, please give yourself credit where credit is due. I'm not going to preach or anything but just say I understand and that suicide can't be a good choice