Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i have been trying to feel better, i have sever clinical depression and sever anxiety disorder and agoraphobia, i have managed to get myself back into school after being out 12 years its been almost 3 months now and now i just seem to have hit a wall with coping. i was a stay at home mom for the last 2 years more from my illness then my actual want to be home with my kids. I love my husband and we really have had a rough go at things so far but he really doesnt understand that i cant do all the things that i used to do when i was home all the time. My kids hate that i cant play with them all the time and because of their scheduals with school i cant do my own school work until after they go to bed. and the meds that i am on make me sleep and i need almost 9-11 hours of sleep to be functional the next day but i cant get that because i have to wait till 830 at night to start my homework and then i have to take my pills before 9 because i have to get up to get everyone ready and off to school. I am losing my grip. i dont want to do this anymore, i want to go back to where i was before i went back to school because even if i was so lonely it was at least a simple life and i could just go through the motions everyday. i feel like cutting again which i havent done since i was in highschool and that thought to take everypill in the house sits on my mind constantly. i just want some help how many times do i need to ask to get it? how much do i need to beg?
i hate my life right now.
i hate my life right now.
If you want to go to school, online colleges are really in right now and I hear there are a lot of great programs but if things were simpler before school, who says you have to go back?
we both know that cutting is deceitful. you tell yourself it's helping but really it just breaks you down. and I think you know that is not the road to go back down.
keep your head up & take care.
It sounds like you are overwhelmed with chores and responsibilities. It must be very difficult to be in your shoes, you sound like the superwoman!
I think you need to take a step back. Write down all the things that you do all day - picking up kids, getting them ready, laundry, your studying etc etc. Once you have done that, think what help you need, in exact terms. Could you get some help with getting the kids ready for school? Could you get some help with cleaning? Then think of all the resources available to you - your husband, your neighbours, your friends, your mum etc. Have a discussion with your husband. Ask for help with specific things that could help you feel more in control. Ask everyone, they will help. hugs