are you asking people who've recovered?

what if your not on track and feel you have no purpose in life?

sorry for being so negative

hugs

i don't know if i am back on track or not but everyday i fight like crazy to get there and honestly i don't know why but for some reason i do.lots of things are thrown at me as well as others but for some reason i am a survivor and i hope you are too.my friends i have made here have brought me through alot and i hope i have been able to help them also.all i can say is tie a knot and hang on for dear life and keep on fighting the fight.
hugs to you

Well, I was DX'd with Clinical Depression after I tried to take my life last November 29th. I was in the mental hospital for 10 days. Actually it was probably one of the best things that ever happened to me (the nuthouse experience is what I call it).

Thankfully I suffered no ill effects from the pills and I am thankful now that I lived.

I am on medication now for my depression and thankfully I found this site right home from the hospital. This place has been a saving grace for me, but I also have to work hard each and every day to keep my attitude and my depression to a level I can function at. It's a matter of not only meds BUT mind over matter....which doesn't always work but if you DON'T try then you are sure to wallow in a deep pit of despair. I have had one attempt since but it was not in the form of pills but I came to my senses before I jumped. I had to pull myself out of it.

When I say you, I don't mean you personally burr...lol...I mean you as people in general. :)

Not sure if this is what you were looking for....my apologies if I misunderstood your post.

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I dont think Im on the right track yet, sorry, but Im not the person to ask.

If &/or when i get on track, ill let u know. Good luck
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Cathy

Carolina, .. you have what it takes, .. no question. You will get there.

I self-diagnosed with Clinical Depression and asked my GP for meds. Things got worse and he changed the meds. Things got worse and I went into therapy. It helped, but I was already so low. I voluntarily admitted myself to a lockdown psychiatric facility for suicidal feelings. While there, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, had my meds changed. Being locked down nearly destroyed me and i left the Psych hospital for a medical one with a heart attack that the psych staff thought was a panic attack.

I recovered from the MI, went back to my therapist, got steered in a new direction. I dug in and applied myself to recovering. I told my secrets, I spoke of things I wouldn't even admit to myself, I learned things... and I slowly got better. There were sessions that were like backbreaking, painful labor, but I made myself do it, and I always felt better each session.

I'm now out of therapy and off my meds due to my personal financial situation. I'm on SSD and I had to turn down medicare because the premium would have made purchasing food impossible. I get by day to day by relying on what I learned in therapy. Some days are chicken, some days are feathers.

I got thrown from a horse, wound up in a body cast for 8 weeks and while I was there, my husband left me. I got out and couldn't bring a glass of water to my lips even when I was dying of thirst. With therapy, my upper body strength came back and I could use a manual wheelchair. I found an apartment and learned how to live in a wheelchair. Sometimes I'd pound the crap out of my legs and scream at them, God, everyone who wasn't there. I stopped talking to people.

I got depressed, tried to commit suicide, got saved by a friend who screamed at me, loved me, held me, and drove me to sessions with a shrink. I worked on my problems, learned to cope and life went on. I had two more procedures done and now I'm working on walking with leg braces.

Everything comes back to what I learned in my years as a rodeo rider: You get hurt, you get up, and you go on. Sometimes you need help and there's nothing wrong with accepting it.

Thank you for those of you who responded to this. This is hard and I feel like I am fighting and endless fight.

Is there actually such a thing as being recovered from bipolar and not having to take meds forever?

I told my b/f tonight that i am leaving him and that he is is pathetic for being desperate enough to want to be with me.

I drank on my meds and i think that has something to do with it. So i know not to do that again.

I told my brother i wanna just just be on valium again, and hes like"thats just like being dead"
ugh, i just want to stop hurting.

In my short little life I've manage to have in no paticular order, Cancer, a period of insomnia that gave me little or not sleep for 3 months, glandular fever and further fatique on top of the sleeping issues, emotional abuse from family, some painful breakups, the loss and betrayal of a best friend, doctors at times questioning my integrity as I put little of an act on... I am mostly a 'brave' face to the officials. I failed college 3 times, went through periods of life having no mobile phone, or facebook, Alchoholism, 3 nervous breakdowns, numerous meltdowns sometimes uncontrollable social anxiety mixed with breathing problems headaches and chest pains.

I've actually come quite far from all this, but am still, definately depressed. With 1 friend left, who is soon to move a few cities away, what will I have to hold together. Just me. It's doable.

born=life=eventual death.

Burr, if you could be functional on meds, would that be so bad?

I take a pill a day and it allows me to get out of bed, bathe, dress, go to physical therapy, walk across the room and back on braces, and then go out and do three miles in my chair. Without the meds, I might spiral back down where I was.

I thank all the Gods for that pill!

your comment about bipolar. I have bipolar and i need to take the meds until i'm dead. there is no such thing as being recovered fom bipolar. I will have to say that the meds i take for bipolar work great and i'm stable

Agree with 4Wheeelinc.....there is no cure for bipolar and/or depression; only treatment options but they are very effective.

Are you on a mood stabilizer? The good news is that bipolar is NOT a death sentence like other illnesses. Bipolar responds very well to the right medications. My daughter is bipolar and is doing well.

Good luck to you; help is out there.

xx