Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Even though I am going through a depressive episode (not sure what else to call it) right now (can't work, concentrate, have trouble with guilt, anxiety) so far, reaching out to others on here has really helped me to gain back a sense of doing something useful and good; a sense that I was losing due to the depression I've been suffering.
I have had two previous bad episodes; the first when I didn't realize I needed to be medicated and the second because once I got better the first time, my meds were tapered because we thought perhaps the depression was scenario-specific.
This time, I've been on meds, but due to an accidental change in dose (half of what I really needed) because of switching medications due to cost, I had an awful breakdown while working and have been struggling to get back on track since.
I am scared. I feel so alone, and so I turned to find others like me. I hate that we suffer, but am glad that we are not alone.
I have had two previous bad episodes; the first when I didn't realize I needed to be medicated and the second because once I got better the first time, my meds were tapered because we thought perhaps the depression was scenario-specific.
This time, I've been on meds, but due to an accidental change in dose (half of what I really needed) because of switching medications due to cost, I had an awful breakdown while working and have been struggling to get back on track since.
I am scared. I feel so alone, and so I turned to find others like me. I hate that we suffer, but am glad that we are not alone.
AnnJo, I do have hobbies and my brain has started to stir in the last day or so with interest in them. Before that, I was too anxious to even think about doing anything. I've never been so paralyzingly anxious before - depressed yes, but anxious not really. I hear you about the coffee - until this last breakdown I was a large iced coffee, cigarettes to get me going person. Once I got anxious and was throwing up, I quite the coffee and cigarettes because I was afraid of the burning in my stomach.
voodooguru - thank you so much for your kind words. The meds are being sorted. My face is a bit tingly and my hands a little itchy - but I hope it's not a huge allergic reaction.
(Not) funnily enough, my therapist stood me up yesterday due to a family emergency. In my depressed state, I thought I'd messed up the appointment date/time. Then I started to wonder if it was to "show me" since I had been late....Depression does very strange things to an otherwise rational person.....
see WV post DS Newcomers :)