Hi guys! 
I haven't posted in a while, and that's because although the depression was still niggling, I had gone though my counselling and had actually gotten to feel a little better and to cope a bit better... 
I had learnt to be more positive and to cope with my moods better, to not care about what others are doing and where in life they have gotten and to concentrate on myself and to be proud of myself. 
But this past week has been one of my worst... Monday morning my partner got the sack from his job... we had no warning, we have fought the dismissal and gotten no where... and bang my mood instantly went down hill and I am really struggling to get back up again. 
My anger and frustration on Monday was out of control, I am crying every evening, I just can't seem to understand why we are dealt all the bad luck every time... nothing seems to go right for us no matter how hard we try and I just can't seem to understand why we aren't allowed to be happy. 
I know people say you can be happy just try but when we have no money, have been together 4 years and can't afford our own place, to settle down, get married and have children, it's just constantly dragging me down. 
My concentration levels have gone out the window, I can't switch my mind off, I am exhausted but can't sleep I just lay staring at the ceiling... 
I just needed to vent... but I just don't know what to do anymore... it takes forever to get back on our feet and we get knocked down so quickly right back to the beginning again... :( 
I'm not expecting advice just needed to vent..