Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I typed a half of a page before I did what I did. I filled out a form Hoaders to see if they could help. After 12 beers I blacked out. The next day my room was trashed. I drank 17beers 14 Xanax ,20 sareaquil and 20 elavil. Some health freaks that don`t drink or do drugs. I don`t remember at what time I stated to commit suicide. I think that it was a message from God saying I am not going to let you go that easy! The next day I woke up at 7pm. God left a message to the ROM portion of my brain. God said to me that through me the non beleivers will see God through me.
I believe it may time to start seeking some professional help. Sitting at home, stewing in your juices is not helping you and I worry that if you leave it too long then you may go too far.
You are religious, I get that but if you take your life, there is no space for you.
The body you have can withstand a huge amount of punishment on this level - just because this didn't take you this time, there's nothing stopping it for taking you on other occasions of this magnitude when your body gives out.
When you listen to what you would call God, it comes with peace, love and joy. It softly guides you to where you need to be and what you need to learn. Take from this what you can, yet know that this is an example of what you can withstand and use it to go further into betterment.
Be grateful you are alive and seek some professional help.
Getting help from a professional would be a good start.