Writerswoe, first of all cool name on here. I'm a writer as well.

Your post makes me so sad and well, angry, for you. Because I've been there. My parents did and do it now. The kicker is that they both has mental health problems too.

Idk why your parents are reacting this way. Ignorance, hoping it's a phase, apathy, cluelessness or just being horrible because they choose to. It's not ok, it's not your fault. It's not ok, it's not your fault. I repeated it for a reason because their behavior is not a reflection on you.

My high school had a guidance counselor. Reach out to yours. The counselor can either help you find the help you need and/or interseed with your parents and give them a wake-up call that you need help. Even if your parents remain foolish, it's not ok and it's not your fault. You can still get help. I will assume you are under our parent's insurance. Ask the counselor to help you find a provider to talk to as in a therapist and/or psychiatrist. Take a bus or bike ride if your parents don't take you. You know them so you probably know that if they see that they need to do something, the least they can do is drive you to appointments. If not, back to the guidance counselor to put the fear of God in them if they neglect you.

Please talk to someone. You deserve it and you need it. Go tomorrow when you get to school or on your lunch or make an appointment before your first class. Keep coming on here. Lots of supportive people who are currently in your spot or have been at one time. You are smart. You know what they are doing is wrong and you found this site and reached out for help. Never stop advocating for yourself. I've had to be my own advocate because sometimes even my doctors mess up and need to be replaced and I keep on them until they get it right. I make a pain out of myself for them because if no one will do it for me, I have to do it. But first please talk to your school counselor. They can be really helpful. If you happen to get a bad one on the first try, ask for another or that counselor's supervisor. Push the issue. Don't stop. You need and deserve a happy life and you will have it.

Thank you.

I'm sorry your parents treat you so badly. Wish I could scoop you up and bring you home with me although I'm guessing they wouldn't like that very much. When you talk to the guidance counselor at your school tell them about how your parents treat you.

Sounds like they're folding your stress back on you, which is normal parenting. This increases your ability to cope with stress.

When you want to talk about your problems to them, you have to remain polite to them, and try to talk calmly as well. Try to avoid telling them what to do, and try to gently talk about the problems you are having.

Be a friend to them and you will find they are more inclined to be a friend to you. Life is tough with anxiety and depression; but life is also tough living with someone with anxiety and depression. The paranoia, the mood swings. it's tough. Be kind to them.

And if you don't want them to remember and hold against you the things that you say and do in the heat of the moment, it's going to be imperative that you also don't hold against them the things that they say and do in the heat of the moment.

Try to find a way to calmly navigate this, and you will be able to be more help to your kids when you have them. Don't take anything personally, and try very hard not to say anything you don't mean when you are upset. And remember they were teenagers too. So they may well have a clue how you feel, but just not buy into your expectations of how you should be handled.

Help be a de-escalating force, and see if that means things don't escalate.

I hope you are doing ok. You know that in a few years you can leave, go to college, start your new life...do just about anything. It is not easy being a kid. Even if your family is great and love you, it still is not easy. When you feel they do not love you, it is even worse. But you ARE worth it. No matter how bad things get tell yourself that you are worth it.

Some parents don't want to believe anything could be wrong with their child. Some will try to guilt you into snapping out-of-it, or some will simply stick their heads in the sand. When you think about talking to your parents about your feelings, can you hear, in your mind, what you wish they would say? Sometimes it's hard to deal with other people's responses to our depression, especially if they don't understand, for whatever reason. It hurts me to know you want your parents to understand and they just don't. Have you ever heard people say not to worry about what others think of you? That's really hard to stop doing, believe me, I know! I wanted my mom and dad to understand my depression and got similar responses to your parents. Can you talk to a teacher? An aunt? I don't want to go on and on about all the things you could try to do, I know you want your mom and dad to understand. Maybe write down your feelings and give them to your mom. Please feel better knowing some of us do understand your pain

I agree with an early response - I also wish I could scoop you up and take you home. :-( However, I am so glad you realize and acknowledge your anxiety and depression. You are valuable and have so many possibilities for the future even though it may be hard to see right now. I agree with other posts saying to talk to your high school guidance counselor. Also - do you have other adults in your life you look up to that you could talk to? ...Maybe a teacher, coach/leader, aunt/grandmother etc? I also am concerned that you "don't want to do it anymore" "or that you wish you weren't alive". I had a close friend that ended her life and didn't talk to her friends about her depression. I still cry because she didn't reach out to us or anyone that cared so much about her. If you are tossing these thoughts around, please call 1-800-SUICIDE or 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). Another resource that has some good information on teen depression; or, if you just feel like talking is thehopeline.com. Also - here is a song for you
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7C2o0jHNRuU
You are in my prayers "writerswoe"!

I grew up the same way, I knew I was developing depression and anxiety, growing up in a middle class home, and I went to my mom about it. She always blew it off with "oh you're fine" "oh you're being dramatic" "oh you're just looking for attention". Now a few years into my adult life on my own, it's caught up to me. I now need meds and therapy, etc. Try to do anything you possibly can to get the help you need now. Don't feel ashamed. We're all wired differently. But if you don't get help now, it might just get worse and worse and drive you into a deeper hole when the real world comes at you and you need a clear head to take it on. Best of luck!

My family tends to sweep everything under the rug. My relationship has suffered greatly with my mom because she would tell me to get over it, etc. The crazy thing is that my mom suffers from depression but she is one of the very lucky ones whose medicine has helped her just about 100%. She has forgotten what depression feels like. There are times I hate her still and she's 91 y/o. So I had to grow up with a depressed mom but she doesn't remember that. At this moment, I am hating her. She has never tried to help.