Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Sounds like you are at the bottom so the only place from here is up. Which means it will get better.
Did you know if you go down into a dry well in the ground seven feet down in the middle of a bright sunny day that you can see the stars clearly. There are treasures in your darkness if you look for them. Keep looking up cause that is the only direction you can head when you are at the rock hard bottom or floor of the pit you feel like you are in.
There was a story about a farmer who had a donkey that accidentally fell into his well. The donkey was stuck in the mud at the bottom of the well but because the well was so deep, the farmer figured he couldn't rescue the donkey because he didn't have long enough ropes. So the farm thought he would just fill in the well to stop the donkey from making so much noise and it would hopefully end the donkey's life sooner intead of just leaving the donkey to starve. So shovel full by shovel full the farmer threw dirt down the well till all of the sudden the donkey stepped out of the well to the shock snd amazement of the farmer.The donkey just shook off the dirt being thrown onto his back and stepped up onto the dirt until the well was full enough of dirt that the donkey could step out if it. We can be like that donkey--shake off the negative thoughts and overwhelming fears and step up or just let all the dirt suffocate us.
Many success stories are from people who had nothing and were sleeping in their cars. They didn't quit. They just kept on trying. This one book author had 750 rejection slips from 750 publishing companies he sent his manuscript to but he didnt quit. On the 751st try, a publishing company decided to print his book and he finally made some money.
You have talents, skills, and abilities that no-one in the whole world of 7 billion has that exact combination that you do--you are unique and important so don't quit. If others don't recognize your abilities, you know them. Use your skills to maybe even start your own business.
Brainstorm every possibility that you haven't tried yet--casual labour office, advertise as a handiman or whatever you may be able to offer in the way of a skill, go knock on some doors and ask if there are any odd jobs you could do for hire, etc.
Let your creative juices flow and don't give up. Remember the Will Smith movie, The Pursuit of Happiness, based on a real story of a man who lost his wife to divorce and rode the subway trains with his son and slept on public bathroom floors. He was penniless and trying to raise a child. He was at rock bottom and looked up. He started climbing up out if his pit of despair one step at a time and ended up landing a job on Wall Street cuz he didn't quit. We look forward to hearing your success story. You can do this. You've got what it takes. Keep knowing there is still hope, there is help, there are answers even if you haven't found them yet.