So a couple of days ago i posted how i was having thoughts to hurt myself and i still do but the other night i did something so stupid I can't even begin to explain. My roomates werent helping me get our appartment together and I just wanted to die and Just to forget everything and everyone. So i grabbed a bottle that had crown in it and drank a 4th of it in half an hour. The next day was hell wont go into details but even now i still want to hurt myself I still want to disapper off the face of the earth, and I still want to die. I keep thinking just keep it together one more day the pain will go away put its not and I cant keep everything together I cant keep bing the only adult in the house while my roommates get to goof off and act like a child. Well i should go maybe tonight will be the night that i go to sleep and never wake up. wouldn't that be nice.
this is my first time writing to anyone about what i am feeling and its hard to try and out yourself its embrassing, but i know i need the help and this is me trying to better myself. I have not ate today i stayed in my room most of the day i just drank some water and that was pretty much it, im sad evryday and i don't know what to do or how to stop it, i just know i don't want to be sad anymore
Hi folks, I'm new. I'm 21 years old and struggle with Depression. Today I managed to get out of bed and do some errands though. I hope I can get some support and support those around me.