So a couple of days ago i posted how i was having thoughts to hurt myself and i still do but the other night i did something so stupid I can't even begin to explain. My roomates werent helping me get our appartment together and I just wanted to die and Just to forget everything and everyone. So i grabbed a bottle that had crown in it and drank a 4th of it in half an hour. The next day was hell wont go into details but even now i still want to hurt myself I still want to disapper off the face of the earth, and I still want to die. I keep thinking just keep it together one more day the pain will go away put its not and I cant keep everything together I cant keep bing the only adult in the house while my roommates get to goof off and act like a child. Well i should go maybe tonight will be the night that i go to sleep and never wake up. wouldn't that be nice.
I am not sure where to post this so it is going here. When I started getting sober a year ago I was still smoking weed and was up until just a couple days ago. I had taken kratom a few years back but started taking it multiple times daily after not too long of getting off the booze. It instantly helped calm me down, helped me sleep, let me get thru the days without being in horrible pain and...
i found out recently that my father touched my cousin 30 years ago when she was only 5. My question is is it wrong of me to still want a relationship with my father after hearing he did that? what would you do? i know its the past, and i also dont condone what he may have done. it makes me so sick to my stomach. thank you