Oh Vii, triple hugs. I am so sorry you feel so badly.

Have you given any more thought to getting a counselor? You have been through so much and sometimes we need someone who is not a member of our family or a friend to talk to about our pain.

and you have been having thoughts of dying for a few days here now. please call a hot line and talk with someone if you won't seek counseling.

I hope you will start to care for yourself and be kinder and gentler with yourself.

maybe before you speak with someone, write out what you are gonna say and have it with you so if you start crying and you can't make yourself understood you can hand them what you wrote so that they can understand better. just a thought.

triple hugs

Many hugs and prayers, Dear.
I'm sorry you're feeling so poorly. If you can't talk about your feelings, perhaps you could write them for your eyes only. I'll be thinking about you. God bless.

There is a very good reason that humans have more than one form of communication, because for some people expressing their emotions in verbal form is equivalent to torture. Writing a letter to someone you want to make understand how you are feeling or what you are going through is a perfectly acceptable form of communication. Let me stress "letter" not email. Emails are psychologically viewed with either the absence of emotion or the wrong emotions, and the decision of how they are viewed is in the Reader's control.

Even if you have trouble talking to a Therapist writing a letter is perfectly acceptable until you become comfortable.

You don't always have to voice your feelings, many, many people have that same problem of getting them our the right way.

As for helping yourself with all the emotions in your head, writing in a Journal everyday can be very healing and cathartic. Your mind is like a large trunk where you store all the things that you come in contact with throughout the day. So unless you get all the bad stuff out, it just adds up and adds up and adds up, and then we begin to be overloaded causing sadness, stress, anxiety, etc. Writing all of your "bad" down in a Journal each day can help keep your Trunk clean.

Take care,
kat

I feel you there. But we understand you here on Daily Strength. Just keep pushing through, there will be brighter days. If you need to talk to someone, you are more than welcome to message me.
Prayers.

hi my names Jeremy im new here and I just wanted to say I know just how you feel I get so frustrated to the point that I just don't know what I want to do in life. I've never been able to talk about the things im feeling with anyone. the only thing that really brings me happiness is diving into one of my Star wars books!!

I've joined here in the hopes of finding another way of finding a way out of thoughs dark times. that talking with other people like me can help and maybe I can help them to.