I can understand. I pretty much feel the same. What keeps me going is the off chance that something changes in my life and I'll be able to be happy again, one day.

Maybe hang onto that thought. Get through what you're dealing with and just look ahead. Screw all the pain and misery right now and think about change. Good change. One day it'll happen.

Keep strong!

I agree with the previous comment. I also know how you feel. Things could ease up, even if they don't get perfect or even good, maybe you could get just a little relief somehow. I don't know your situation completely but I know that I get really extreme sometimes with my anger and hopelessness but then it can ease up a little bit. I also have a hard time with people, I usually feel better mentally when I am alone. I like to watch videos at night and have a nice dinner. Do something nice for yourself, forget about all the assholes out there... hang in there. You aren't alone.

I want to say something that will help, but being someone with similar thoughts I am stuck with my words... all I can offer is to be a friend, and if you need to talk I am here for you. I really hope your day gets better. Maybe you should watch something you enjoy to brighten your day. For me that was a youtube video of Vin Diesel doing the "I am groot" voice in multiple languages. Maybe to you that won't work, but find your thing that works. Don't give up, I hope you smile today at least once.

I can't make anything better...but I do want you to know that I care.

Hi love . I totally relate to how you feel . Many times I gave up, did not feel wanted or important, lash out on loved ones in result of them leaving. Many people do not understand how we feel when we are dealing with depression or anxiety. They think we play "victim " or we just blame everything on people. I have been there and I have been through days where I thought I would never make it a day. I just want you to feel that you can make it through. I am so sorry that you feel this way and guinuely wish the best for you. Stay strong because I have been through suicidal days and attempts and have grown from them. Much love beautiful. Stay strong !♡

Just wondering ; are you sleeping enough? If not, you may want to address the sleep problem. You'd be surprised sleep can be soooo crucial.

If you have problems sleeping, get in touch with me.
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If you can get away from all negative influences. If you are near water, sit with water in a Natural setting. This may give you relief. Be with Nature, I cannot stress this enough.
Get to the places that add to your energy!
Constant exposure to negative or chaotic vibes will worsen depression. Try to think of depression as a state of very low energy, and do stuff that turns *you* on.
This will help you sleep. Ask yourself, would you be suicidal if you felt. SAFE?

No I don’t sleep but maybe 2-3 hours a night