I called my doctor when I felt that. I said I needed help and he asked me if I had thought of suicide.I waited a minute and told him the truth. YES. I was so embaressed. He suprised me and said that was quite normal. He set me up on anti depression meds. Do not think it helped much but I am better now. What is the answer for all of us feeling this way I do not know, but I do know taking ones life is not. Big hug to you. Things will work out. Trust yourself in knowing this is true. This site is a big insperation of hope. Stay on here and talk it out. Best of luck..

I know that this kind of thing can happen in a marriage and the best thing to do would be to talk it out with your husband and see if you can work on this. If it does not get better or he is unable to help you with this I would seek a therapist to help you with this. It is better to love and want love then to feel you can't love.

Hang in there things will get better. I know it may not look it at the moment but they will if you take the time to do what is best for you.
H2oFanatic is right find a counselor and get on anti-depressants. Take a good life at where you are at and where you want to be in the future then take charge and go for it.
You can not change or make your husband go to counseling with you but it could help. Just remember you are important to not just him or others so do what is best for you but please do not end it things will get better

Thank you guys for your sweet comments. As far as finding a counselor, I have no insurance or the money to go see a doctor of any kind. I've tried talking to him about everything but he always turns it around to something else. We've tried marriage counseling but he only went to one session and it helped for about a month, and then it started going downhill again. Now he says that our problems are no one else's business and we can work it out on our own. He doesn't want me to talk to anyone about anything.

This is a great book for help with marital problems...http://www.amazon.com/Getting-Love-You-Want-Anniversary/dp/0805087001/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1318514082&sr=1-1

I know that counselling is very expensive. Maybe you could go to a counselor at church or a counselor with a sliding fee or go to church to find some answers for yourself. We cannot change anyone but ourselves so maybe it is time to work on yourself and help yourself to feel better. Maybe he is moody and not a loving person. You have to think is this what I want and if it is not something you want then you could leave or if you can try to live with this then try to do this. Do your best in the situation. Not all marriages are great and it can be hard. All we can do is work on ourselves.

hi tabitha- i have been living with depressioin as long as i can remember, these are my thoughts, not a doctor, I believe depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain, there is nothing you can do about it except get medicine and counceling. you can go to your local health department and probably get both with little or no money. you cant do much about your husbands actions, but you can get help by talking about it to a professional. your reaction to his behavior is what is important. i think some depression is about low self esteem. which i have. if you have a good attitude about yourself, then you can decide what is best for you, like getting up and not participating in an argument. I have been with my husband 18 years, and we have had only 2 fights, we talk not fight, communication is the key to any good marriage.as far as the suicide thoughts they will pass, i have noticed when i eat sugar, and take sleeping pills, i have more suicidal thoughts. i know they will pass. positive thinking is the key, but hard to do. i will add you to my watch list and i will track how you are doing, i know if you believe in god and trust him you will be okay, you are too young to suffer. take the time to help yourself, your husband will help himself when he see you are doing better. keep your chin up. ps. suicide hurts the people ou leave behind, did i tell you i have two brothers that have both killed themselves? i have faitth in you. sincerely tt.

thanks to all of you for the advice/opinions/help. I will do my best to keep my head up and keep moving forward. I do have low self esteem, but I try not to. And yes I do go to church and believe in God. I believe He will help me :)

AMEN keep the faith and God will lead the way... Isaiah41 ; 10

try to focus on your family instead of negative thoughts.

God bless and good luck

Couples counseling is a must in this situation. I know NAMI has meetings 4 families. You can check out www.nami.org and find a meeting in your hood.