Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I apologise if any of this is considered a trigger to anyone.
Honestly I’m in so much financial stress. I’m now in even more debt because Centrelink have claimed I owned 1.5k because my school told them I wasn’t enrolled. I’m trying to oppose their decision on this bill, because I’ve been enrolled at this place for 7 years now.
I’ve left there now and seeking full time work (I was going to redo my final year because I was forced out of school late last year due to my lack of attendance because I was in hospital for 3+ months). They’ve also suspended my unemployment payments and now I’m genuinely broke, I have $6 in my savings.
I just found out my boyfriend told all of his friends about an assault on me that happened near the beginning of my relationship with him. I’ve been with him for 4 years. He constantly is trying to ‘catch me out’ cheating, but I’ve never cheated on him and I simply will never. To make matters worse or at least more pressuring, I think I might be pregnant. I don’t have the money to buy a test, nor to pay for a visit to my GP..
I’ve been on 20mg of lexapro for a year and it helped a lot, but now I feel terrible again. It’s gradually been getting worse.
When I was 13-15 years old, I would self-harm daily and I managed to stop, but even now (I’m 18) I’m starting to feel the pull back to it.
Stupid example, but, I was watching Sons of Anachary today and the scene where Juice tries to kill himself when the other guy finds out and hugs him, it just made me cry because I don’t think I’ve been acknowledging how I’ve been feeling. How equally stuck I feel.
And now I don’t know what to do with myself. If there was a way I could die without pain, at this point I’d genuinely take that option without a second thought.
It's devastating that your boyfriend told everyone about your assault. That was personal information that you trusted him with. I know it's scary and hard because you don't have the money, but I'm wondering if there's a Women's clinic or a Planned Parenthood in your area where you could get a pregnancy test for free due to your limited finances? Knowing whether or not your pregnant as early as possible, allows you to have as many options as possible as well as to get the best care possible.
You're dealing with so much right now. Please continue to reach out for support.
At the moment I might just have to wait till I can get a bit more money together to buy a test