It sounds like your meds need some fine tuning if all they are doing is what you describe above. Talk to your dr. or perhaps see a different one if possible. In my experience, some drs. are pleased if you didn't harm yourself or another person, while others really care about you as a whole person. I find that talk therapy is also useful (along with my meds), and it gives me energy and goals. I also find that talking with an Higher Power (for me, God) helps a lot. You can also do a google search to learn about the meds you're on, and if other meds might treat the same symptoms in a better way (even though your dr. should know this, too.) Good luck! I'll think of you in my prayers this morning.

Sometimes if you have been on the same meds for a while, they will start to not work - that happened with me, and now that I'm on new meds, I'm much better. I still have bad days, of course, but I can tell a difference. The lack of energy is what always gets me. When I don't have the energy to do anything, then I start hating myself more. So, definitely talk to your dr. Also - I found a great app on my phone that I go to every day that helps - 7 Cups. Give it a try! And friend me if you want a friend to vent to, talk to, or just cry to. I'm having a good day tomorrow, but yesterday was a hard one, and tomorrow may be too. We're all in this together. :-)

Welcome to a good place to say whatever you want and trust people to care and be supportive. I agree it would be a good idea to talk with your doctor about possibly trying a different antidepressant that helps you more. It also helps me to do therapy, medication and go to a support group. Whatever it takes for you to turn the corner and do better. Learn to think better about yourself and set goals even if they are small. After going through a recent divorce, it has helped me to have the thought to keep moving and just do one more simple thing. Once I sit in the recliner in the evening, that's usually the end of any activity .

Thank you for the responses. Gladdmatt, thank your for you prayers. My Doctor is only given 10 minutes to see me. By the time he checks my pulse, blood pressure, heart and weight, my time is up.

Uagryl,
I want to get on mirtazapine, not efferxor xr., .. Mertazapine makes me hungry, it would be better for me but my GP refuses unless I see a psychiatrist I told him that I dive them all crazy.
So I'm stuck. . Thanks for answering..

Minidogas2, another thank you, I'm running out of fight. I just want to sleep.
Maybe I'll get some more encourage ment here.
Thanks

You are Welcome here. Many of us feel the same way. It may help to keep a journal of your feelings also. I find them helpful to re-read later and monitor my own progress. Hugs!

Wha...never say we won't like you. Give us a chance. Don't judge us by the condemnation you have put upon yourself. Respect yourself. Know that you are worthy of respect.
Something I would suggest...set small goals...obtainable goals...like getting a bath/shower at least every other day. Then...award yourself. Congratulate yourself.
Then, next wk make a new goal...getting dressed up for no reason...just to please yourself.

Before you know it, you will be setting goals to please yourself. Then...you will receive compliments from others...then you will take pride in yourself.

But, remember...it starts with small goals.

And, I shall pray, too.

You have received great advice and lots of support which is what we all need, but why on earth would you think we would hate you?? That is not even close to the truth. We are all here to support each other. If anyone is on Lamictal, there is an article I received from MD.com about a new side affect. Just wanted to put that out there. I will keep you in my prayers!! And here are some extra hugs too. GB