Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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fallreins 02/14/2014

I can't see any light. There are things in my life I should be happy about, but I'm not.

I have overwhelming anxiety at the moment, just sitting on a bus sets me off and this evening tears were running down my face as I was going home from work.

On my way to work earlier, I was planning my suicide notes. I realised what changed very recently - everything used to matter, and now nothing does. My love for the idea of dying is over-riding my love for the people in my life. They'd be better off, anyway. All I am is a burdon to everyone around me.

I feel so alone. I feel so ...hopeless.

I literally feel numb and shaky and all I can think about is my own death. I can't see any way out of it.

fallreins 02/14/2014

I have tried to stop thinking, I have tried to control it, but I can't anymore. It's overwhelming. Even if I ended up in hospital I wouldn't get any help. No one knows how I feel. I keep it to myself and everyone thinks I'm happy.

fallreins 02/14/2014

Thank you, by the way, Canaan...that was a very sweet reply.

fallreins 02/14/2014

I cannot find the crisis number. I'm getting desperate. I don't know what to do.

netsue 02/14/2014

call the samaritains and talk to someone,if you let out what your,e thinking you will feel calmer......cry some tears ...feel some relief ,even if only tempory . then you will be able to think straight .make yourself a warm drink .you can and will cope .

IcaLoote09 02/17/2014

In my journey of depression and extreme anxiety, what I've learned is that you can't control your thoughts. You also can't alter how you think. You can't force happiness on yourself.

There is this VERY excellent book that I myself am currently reading. It might be very helpful for you. It's called "The Happiness Trap" by Russ Harris (only $13 paperback).

Getting better comes deep within you. You're still here... you can still be here. You posted on this- that's a great start! It makes me see your want to still exist :)

Definitely check out that book. And please seek immediate help if you're planning a time. The E.R will not turn you down.

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