I'm living in a personal care home--this particular one since March of this year, when the one I'd been living in the previous 3 years closed. I hate this place. The food is terrible. I don't know anybody, I have no friends here. My husband passed away in June 2017. We had good times and bad times. At least then I had a life. I had a nice apartment full of stuff and a car. When he died I lost all of that. This is not my home town. I miss my home town terribly. It is 85 miles away and I'd love to move back. I'm on Social Security and I have no family left. I don't see how I could afford the move. That county--Berks County--has been written up as one of the best places to live in Pennsylvania. I miss so many things about it. I have to move out of this place by the end of August. I've applied to public housing. All I can think about is how lonely I'll be. I can't think of the last time I was happy or had a good time since my husband died. We were married for 25 years. We went out to eat alot, got ice cream cones in the summertime and went to the New Jersey beach. We spent holidays with my parents until they died. We hiked at numerous state parks on weekends. All that is over, gone. I don't have a way of getting out of this home to go anywhere. No chance of being able to afford a car again. I really miss driving. I drove for 30 years and still have a valid driver's license. I have no life anymore. And I don't know how to get one. I've been in therapy forever it seems. I like my therapist but it doesn't seem like I'm making progress. Maybe I should look for a new therapist?
I'm new here and I can tell you I'm depressed and lonely. I lost my dad, mom and wife in in a 4 year period. My wife in 2016. This year I have found my self thinking this is it. I'm going to live the last 40 years of my life alone and depressed. I just need to stay strong for my son and ignore how I feel he is more important than me right now. I dont have any friends, my life revolved around...