That's where I found myself when I came to DS. I cried while reading the stories that seemed like mine for hours. Then tired I chose to lay down and fell asleep. I woke the next morning and resd some more. Finally I was able to respond then post. I was met with many that helped with support, ideas, and a bunch of shoulders to let out the pain on.
You do have some where to turn to and you did, right here.
Granted we have times where we have our own ups and downs...lots of downs. When I took taking my life off the table, I found so many other possibilities. Still working them since 2/2013.
I hope you give this more of a chance. You might just find the ways to change the situation.
Gentlehugs and support. J.

Is it a saturday there? Go to a crowded place. The dance clubs or something. Do not go home until you really tried wanted to sleep. Then go home and sleep. I know, the nite is the worst. You are alone.

do not take all of your pills tonight. I do not know the extent of your pill arsenal. I do know that you do not waant to wake up in an ER bed with a pump in your gullet. Instead of retarding yourself I suggest you sort out the reassons leading to said threat and attempt to address the in order

Please don't take your pills or do anything to harm yourself. You can call the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or 1-800-784-2433. If necessary, go to a hospital.