Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I'm so sick of my depression. It keeps bringing me back to the same place. I'm alone. I am a fuckup. I have nothing going for me. I try to force myself to do positive things, but they either don't pan out or don't help. I keep ending up alone. The people in my life I reach out to are tired of me. I'm just a burden to them. I usually use food and tv for distraction but they've stopped so I've started drinking. I've never done this before but it's all I can do from keeping myself from hurting myself. I just feel alone and hopeless. The sorrow is bottomless and I keep exploring the depths. That's all I guess.
I just wanted you to know your not on your own with these feelings. I often say to myself that I'm broken, as I be been suffering so long with depression and anxiety. I've also been on several medications that haven't really done anything for me. I too worry about being a burden to my family. But theses are just thoughts and feelings, things can change. Believe me they can. Don't give up I don't blame u turning to drink, but in the long run it will only make you feel worse. Keep fighting try meditation, try taking to someone. I hope you feel better soon and I hope it helps to know your not on your own with these thoughts.
I am so sorry to here how broken you are. Yes you should go to the hospital and get immediate help now. I have been at the bottom and broken too. Alcohol, drugs, t.v., and forcing yourself to do things will not fix the problem. As people we are all born with a natural instinct of knowing there is a God. When we have hit rock bottom all we can do is cry out, look up and ask God for help. Because there is no other way out, but up. I found when I was broken, I needed find purpose and a goal to work towards. I also found that most of my family would not help because they did not understand. I lived way out of town and had no way of getting into town to a support group with people who really did understand. There was only one who understood me. That was God! I kept crying and telling Him; "I cannot handle this!" Over and over again, I would cry/ scream this out when I was by myself. I did not know what else to do. Then I noticed I was starting to cry out, "I need you help. Help Me! Please Help Me!" Slowly, I started noticing something else, my life was starting to change. The circumstances were still the same, but I felt like the burdens were being lifted off of me. My crying and screaming out became less and less. I felt like trying new things, going a different direction. I even had a desire to start reading the bible! Picked it up and began reading in Proverbs and John. my loneliness turned into comfort and feeling like I was really loved!
I am going to pray for you, because I have been there. I hope you will pick up the bible and start reading it, like I did. I have never regretted making that decision! I am now living a life of purpose and fulfillment. I met the man of my dreams 27 years ago and married him. We had three beautiful kids who are all grown now and living lives of their own. I have done so much in my life since that period of time. I am going to leave you with this verse from the book of John; " For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten, who believes in shall not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16"