Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have not been on this board for a while. I don't know why because I was depressed. I was on the bereavemnt board. I lost my fiancee. It is over 7 years now. Now I am angry that he left me like this and all alone. I work at a seasonal job I hate and to make matters worse they are cutting everyone's salary. I lost my cat Sebastian in the spring and got a new kitten in the summer and she has helped and now I am worried about her. I have 2 other cats. I am deeply in debt and can never find work. I am so afraid of getting old and I hate not having a man in my life and I probably never will again. I cannot adjust to a world of women. All they do is use me for rides and they talk non stop. I hope I do not insult women here. I even went away with one woman and put my head on the pillow to sleep with my eye covers on and said good night and she kept blabbing on. I think what triggered this depression was last week when I took a friend out who suffers from anxiety and although it was a nice day out, all she talked about is how she has no friends and has no one and is all alone. Since then I have been bad. trying not to cry.
Money is a problem and I am afraid I can never pay off my debts. People call Uber for a ride but I should be User. One week I spent a whole week driving people around. I do say no but they don't let up. I see no future for me. With my luck I will live to be 100 too. I don't see the joy in life and just dont get it when people say how great life is. I gained weight and can;t lose it. I try to workout. But most days I am just so depressed. My greatest joy in life is sleep. When I sleep too much then I cant sleep the next night. I used to have great dreams and now they are an extension of my loust life. My mind won't quit.
Sorry if this is long. I know everyone has problems. Ever ince I went out with that girl I can't stop thinkinh of a very bleak future not only for myself but others. When I talk to anyone they say "you're depressed" and then they tell me their problems. I miss having an intelligent two way conversation. All I do is listen. Thank you all for listening.
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Sleep is good, but too much, as you suggested, is difficult. Try to get a routine going as much as you can, even if it is just a small routine. Most people who say how life is are bluffing - they are projecting, faking, etc. Not that it is always bleak, but everyone hurts, everyone. Breath in, breath out, and make it to the next moment. That, in and of itself, is an accomplishment.