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I'm a Cutter but I'm a Mother

mamajude2016
mamajude2016

I still have an urge to cut, but it just makes me more depressed because then I feel like a crappy mom to my son. Sometimes I just wish he had a better mom than me, but at the same time, as selfish as it sounds, I don't know what I would do without him. Anyway, tonight is particularly difficult. I want to cut, but I need to be a mom in the morning.

DancingKitty
DancingKitty
I can totally relate! Sometimes I just picture doing it in my head, like I think about all of the places on my body that I want to cut and imagine what it would feel like. Sometimes I draw "cuts" on paper. I have to keep reminding myself that I would never want my child to see it so I can't really do it, but it's really hard during weak moments.
Tired
Tired
Can you get therapy, write your feelings in a journal, talk to a paster or rabbi?
mamajude2016
mamajude2016
I can't afford the time of therapy. I'm a full time college student as well as a full time worker. I have gone in the past, but therapy has not been a great help to me. I could try writing in a journal though. Thank you for that advice.
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
You have a child to teach you love! Please let go of all that guilt and learn to love yourself!

God Bless
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