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I just want to die.

Blackishworld
Blackishworld

there's is nothing going right in my life for 7 years. when I think that "okay, may be now iam gonna be happy for a while, just for some minutes" then baaammm!!! life starts to give me lemon. and I can't even squeeze them and make lemonade. when I first tried suicide 3 years back and even till now I wake up in the morning and the first thing comes to my mind "why the hell am I alive?". I never got the chance to say " Life is beautiful ". I wanted to say it so bad, wanted to admit from the core of my heart but no. there is nothing going a lil bit okay for me. I just want atleast 1 hour happiness where I can laugh like a most happy person in the world, I just want to be feel what it is like to be happy from inside. you probably gonna say "talk to other person about your problem". but no, that's only make you feel available and weak to them. they will get bored of you eventually. nobody gonna listen a depressed person. nobody even care, they all just pretend. they just pretend to care about you. can you just give me an effective way to death where I would never wake up. I don't wake up in a hospital bed and swear like a sailor, where you parents stare at you like you are degrading them. please, I don't want any mental support. I just want to die. I don't care if it's gonna be painful or not. I don't even feel any physical pain anymore where my mental pain became unbearable.  please I just want to die

SideEffex
SideEffex
I have been where you are. Suicide is a choice that everyone has and it does put an end to your pain. But it's final, and there is no absolute on what is waiting for us after. And while your pain is final, the pain itself is really just transferred to others, the people you leave behind. Often we think no one else cares anyway, but suicide effects people that love you now, and people that knew you in the past. The other thing to consider is that whatever you are going through is TEMPORARY. I know it doesn't feel that way, and maybe it's even been there for a long time. But, asking for help is a good start. And this time can be temporary, and you can get through it. But do not suffer without help. Please get on medication, although it might take a few weeks to get the full benefit, it's a start. And as hard as it is, talk to someone. If you can't find a local one on depression go to AA; they are everywhere and it's still a support group.

I'd like you to think of another time in your life that was good or bad, and recognize that the moment in your life was temporary, and you eventually moved onto other moments. So if you can hold on and know that this too will pass, and you are bravely taking the first steps to ask for alternatives to taking your life, you will make it through this.
RJW
RJW
Thank you for the great strength and courage in sharing. I must confess that in 30 years I can count my good days from morning to evening on 2 fingers. It brings things into perspective. Maybe the smile I want is replacing the frown on someone else's face. Their smile becomes mine. We can be passengers or drivers. Passengers enjoy the view. Drivers are responsible for the safety of those passengers. It is also like taking a photograph versus painting a picture. We have no control over the photograph, but in a painting we can make it anything we want. Painting a picture of the smiles can bring smiles to others, that can then be in those photographs. Never be ashamed in seeking help. A Counselor or a Doctor can help. Many don't understand the strength in walking through life with a huge boulder on your shoulders. I am a Christian, so you are in my prayers. I hope that this was at least some help. Thank you.
Karen141
Karen141
i know it feels like hell but slowly it will get better. it's not gonna be easy trust me but please don't give up. people don't make it better and honestly most people don't care but you need to fight even if the people are just you and jesus. ill pray for you. i've gone through a lot more than anybody knows but jesus and you will fight it together.He is the only one that will fully understand him and a psychiatrist of course.I've been there please don't do it.
Karen141
Karen141
please dont give up.(correction)
RickR
RickR
Whatever you do, don't make the mistake of trying to face this challenge alone. Reach out to friends, family, neighbors and other trusted members of the community. Build a support network. Pull in anybody you can think of who might be able to help - a pastor, a youth leader, a teacher, a coach, or a professional counselor. Ask yourself, "Who do you think you could talk to about these negative feelings?" Follow through by offering to set up an appointment with that person. I'll trust and believe that that person will become a good listener and take your feelings seriously and you'll be set free from this.