Please don't end your life. I hope you get more replies than just mine because I know a lot of us on here have really struggled with depression and understand and can offer some support. Can you tell us more about what is going on in your life that is making you feel so badly? I understand the anti-depressants and therapy not working. It hasn't worked that well for me either.

I just feel empty and with no purpose to live. No energy to do anything and I dont enjoy anything about life. I just dont see the point.

Antidepressants are a scam. What makes you feel hurt?

"I'm easygoing, not very talkative but a very good listener. I like being myself"

From your description, you seem like a nice person who can add a lot to the world. Please stay around, the problems are hard, but hopefully you can overcome this, and see some nice things in your future. .

I know is hard. I have major depression my whole life. I have to spend a lot money to feel better.

I just wish I had friends to talk to at least.

I'm sorry that you feel so down. Please talk to whoever issues your prescription and try another anti-depressant. Zoloft works for my OCD and depression. Tell us more about you. How old are you? Do you live alone? Do you work? You have friends right here at DS. Tell us more.

I'm 36. Livr alone. Work partially from home. I have a few contacts here at DS, but we dont message each other :(

Just sending some love out in the universe to you. I can understand the feeling. I am here tonight because of similar feelings- but while the wish for the pain to end is there- the hope for something beyond is too in me and that scares me a bit. To want is scary because so much bad has happened in the last ten years. But I still choose to believe in possibility and in good and I am hoping you do as well. Hugs and love and light and may you feel that this is fleeting and things are better soon.

Look for motivational videos on YouTube. Also look for videos on the Law of Attraction. You can change your life around.

You have value and worth as a human being. Your purpose is to help other people. Try to find a way to do one good act for someone else every day. Do something for someone else daily. Focus on exercising daily, walk outside.

Consider your spiritual side. Your soul cries out to you to understand this life is for you to learn and grow and connect to our Creator.

You matter. Period. You matter on here, too.

Suicide is not the answer, you are needed on this earth to spread help and love to others. You matter. Call the emergency numbers listed on here, the suicide helpline. Sending you light and loving energy. You are among friends here, walking the same path you are on.

GreenEyes727 Is so right about motivational interviews on YT. They really help! If you're spiritual look up some of those too. YT has been a good source of self-care for me. In addition, try to say positive affirmations everyday and have one for each negative thought.

For example,
Negative thought "I am worthless"
Positive thought " I am worth it" "I am more than enough" "I am loved" "I am courageous" "I am beautiful/handsome"

They really work, even if you don't believe them. You trick your mind into thinking the opposite of how you feel (subconscious programing) . I practice them myself.

Lastly have grace on yourself. If you made your bed today congratulations, brushed your teeth, congratulations, anything that you did today that you usually can't do on any other day because of your depression and SI thoughts congrats. You did it. You made it, Congratulations!

Have you tried a SAD lamp?.... My pdoc says that the science supports them.... I found a gratitude journal helped me

Think of 5 things to be grateful for every day and write them down.... You never feel as badly when you feel grateful

Eventually these things just come to you automatically and it truly helps

Sending you a big hug of support... xo

Hi Jdark87,

I understand where you’re coming from. I’ve been there, I be been on antidepressants for years. I never thought they worked bc I ended up back into the hospital. It wasn’t until they added lamictal to mine that the meds worked. Please never hesitate to go to the hospital when you feel you may end things.

I'm not on meds or getting counseling right now, and I feel the exact same way. I'm asking what is going on in my world the reason I feel this way (wanting to end my life) I think a big part is lack of companionship. I work 40 hours, try to volunteer, attend weekly religious services, travel, have hobbies. But lack of in person friendships and/love leave a huge hole in heart. A pet may help with the loneliness, but I'm not home enough to properly care for a pet