watchign that video of how they killed the animals for their fur was very upsetting...it's making me cry right now thinkg about it!

You only feel like you don't belong because if you are there, you belong at the time and shouldn't feel any different. Maybe you could find a better place to be, but where you are, you belong at the moment. You are more important then you may feel.

i don't feel very import i feel like i'm taking up space.

Things that make you cry are touching a part of you that is important. It is very important to get in touch and look at what is going on there. I am sure it shows a caring part of you that you want to nurture, but that is just my guess. It is important that you look at what is going on inside of you at the time you are so effected. Some great things for you can come out of this. Just don't get into the trap of judging yourself by what you discover. Anytime you are touched so deeply, it is a good thing. It is something true and there is never anything wrong with that.

idk what's going on inside of me.

The fact that you can be touched so deeply shows that you are not just taking up space. Shows that there is great depth inside you. There is much shallowness in this world. Without people like you who can get in touch with depth, the world will be overrun with shallowness and drowned under it.
Wow, drowned under shallowness, i like that. Feel free to use that one, lol! But it is true, you are very important.

I completly agree with the fact that you ARE more important then you realize. Often times we are our own worst critic, we are also the lst ones to give ourselves credit too. Lookin at some of your pics on your profile clearly tells me you aren't a waste of space.

idk why i keep cying....i feel like i'm going to puke.

I'm sure you don't know what is going on inside you. The whole world is constantly telling us, in one way or another, that it is all the stuff on the outside that matters most. But the inside is way more important. You may not know now what is going on inside, but you can find out. Noone else can, only you. Trust me when I tell you that there is nothing in there, that is about who you really are, which is bad. Oh yes, there is darkness in us all, but it is not who you really are. By really looking at what it there, you are sure to find this out. But don't go by me, go by what you see.

You keep crying because you are close to something real inside. It is a good thing I promise. Go ahead and cry and don't try to fight it. Maybe you feel like puking because you are scared and are resisting, Idk, but you should just keep asking yourself Why am I crying? Not like judgemental, just to know. It is okay, you are allowed to cry. I know this and sometimes I go so far as to enjoy crying. maybe I go to far, lol!

idk i'm confused with my feelins and my body. i just want to be loved i don't want to be hurt anymore no my by parents, not by my brothers. not by anyone. but i keep letting it happen.

Keep telling yourself that you won't let them hurt you and you'll be surprised where you can come up with the inner strenght to make that happen

i hope i can but it's hard when i don't have much self esteme

Well we tend to think we are not supposed to have pain, but that is just not true. We have pain for a reason. But not as much as we do. Most of the pain comes from resistance to pain which arises. But again., if when the pain arises, we take the time to look at what is going on with us, we will make the pain become less and we will always learn the lesson that is there. But if we react with resistence and thoughts all about how you don't want this pain, all we will get then is much greater pain. Pain is again, an opportunity. I know you probably don't want to feel any pain, who does/ but when you are not creating any more pain and just dealing with the pain that is there, it is much more manageable.

ya i think your right i'm trying to hold the pain back with a wall but when i cna't hold it much longer it caves in and then i don't knwo what to do wiht it all so i just freak.....

but thank you guy's for the help it has really helped but i should go to bed i have school tomorrow good night guys.