Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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whatswrong19 02/02/2016

I need to be somewhere else. But I have nowhere else to go. I getting picked on by supervisors, I screwed up something because it's the first time I ever did that part of the job at this agency and now I'm going to get written up for it. I did exactly what I was told to do, and there were other things that were suppose to be done, that i did not do because I was not told to do them. I feel like such a failure, I applied for 3 other positions yesterday, and got online today to look, and even found some that sounded interesting, but I did not have that feeling that I could succeed at those jobs either and so I decided to wait until I'm feeling better about myself before I start that search again. I have tried everything I can, meditation, reading quotes, and I'm still on my new medication, Cymbalta, and it was helping up until yesterday when I was told that I was going to be written up for making mistakes, for not doing what I wasn't told to do. I was miserable at my last job, and now I'm miserable here, I know that it's got to have something to do with me, but I don't know how to fix it, and now I'm to overwhelmed to even try to fix it. I'm having ideations, but not making any firm decisions about doing anything other than smoking and hoping to have a heart attack or something. Horrible I know, pathetic too.

kaseyb33 02/02/2016

I can relate to what you are going through. I have struggled with a work position for a while that makes me happy. This adds more stress to those who are experiencing depression. Stay strong and keep trying to find the right position to make you happy. Focus on yourself right now instead of what is going on at work!

WanderingVet 02/02/2016

Seems you are mixed up ... things are not your fault ... things ARE your fault. Which is it?

>>I'm going to get written up for it. I did exactly what I was told to do, and there were other things that were suppose to be done, that i did not do because I was not told to do them.

Soooo .. where does the fault lie? THEM ... or you? If THEM, .. they are unreasonable, incompetent, unreasonable, and tyrannical. Find someone else to work for ... and you are NOT GUILTY.

If YOU, .. then the write up is justified and you will have learned something about doing this job.

I don't know WHICH is the case ... but don't wear any GUILT that does not fit.

Whether this ever happened or not, .. it is not a bad idea to seek employment ... whether you are employed or not. Might be something better out there at any time.

I understand your stress. Just trying to help you 'subside' it.

WanderingVet 02/02/2016

yes .. unreasonable ... TWICE.

whatswrong19 02/02/2016

Vet, probably a little of both. This was my first experience doing a part of the job that does not occur that often, at least not here, and the way different agencies do these jobs is tremendous. I did the job before and did it well at the previous agency, in fact I did it so well they wanted me to do it all the time, Here I was not sure what to do because at the other place we would have taken custody, where here we find a relative and ask them to take the child utnil the parent can be found. I was completely in the dark with how to proceed because it was so foriegn to what I did at my previous employer.

whatswrong19 02/02/2016

and I did EXACTLY what I was told to do. I did not do anything I was not told to do. and I am getting written up for not doing what I was not TOLD to do. Because I'm just suppose to have a crystal ball you know.

survivor69 02/02/2016

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survivor69 02/02/2016

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WanderingVet 02/02/2016

Sounds to me like this new job involves some incompetence at the management level. Your explanation is clear that you did everything in a REASONABLE manner.

If I am correct, .. you probably don't want to work for this organization .. in that they lack SENSITIVITY to this recent event.

I advise you to quietly but urgently seek employment elsewhere ... and refuse to feel guilt.

whatswrong19 02/02/2016

thanks for the support.

whatswrong19 02/02/2016

I am going to continue seeking employment elsewhere, I really want out of the child protective services industry. It's hard to find competent supervisors in this field. People in small towns especially are hired based on who thier parents are, who they're married too or who they live beside, and not on ability.

djchurn 02/02/2016

What kind of work do you do? Does it involve numbers?

Adjusting to the "modern" work world can be a task that is not easily accomplished, particularly at the lowest levels. Middle managers frequently have un-diagnosed issues that can cause many problems.

Heidiclark 02/02/2016

I'm sorry you have to go through this. I really am. I think the sooner you look for other jobs the better. if you wait until you feel better you might miss out on some really nice opportunities, So I urge you not to wait.

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