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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Punkee 01/29/2009

Every little bump, noise, or movement outside scares me. Why? Because I'm terrified of the guy that molested me 3 years ago. Absolutely terrified. He knows I reported him. I was subpeanoed a month or so ago to go to court and testify against him. I couldn't do it. I couldn't face him and I couldn't speak about what happened. I was scared. And now? I can't sleep at night because I'm afraid he's going to show up and try and kill me. Why he would have any intention to hurt me more? I don't know. But I'm sure it's possible. Okay, so a few minutes ago I heard a car beeping outside. I peaked out my window and saw a truck slowly going by my house. I think I heard them pull out of the neighbors driveway, but I'm not sure. All I could think was "it's him". I mean, who leaves someone's house at 330 in the morning? And I have these rush of thoughts everytime I hear something outside, everytime my dogs bark during the early hours of the morning because of it. I live my nights sleepless and in fear. I spend my days trying to sleep, in fear, and dealing with school. I can't handle it anymore. What am I supposed to do?

deleted_user 01/29/2009

Its ok hun, even though life seems so hard to take right now, you are now taking steps to empower yourself as suyB quite rightly says.... Even by posting this you have taken a step in the right direction..

Sometimes the hardest thing in the whole world to contend with is our own mind, but when it comes to this, it is something we need to do.

If you ever want to talk then please feel free to message me or send a chat request any time, I'm never too busy.

Adam

Punkee 01/29/2009

I actually have taken a self-defense class. And I am also currently (and have been) taking a Karate class in which I am semi-familiar with. But even so.. I can't rely on that. No amount of training in the world can prepare you for a moment if/when you're ever attacked by someome intending to do you harm.

Punkee 01/29/2009

Thank you Adam. I'll consider it.

deleted_user 01/29/2009

you are getting the training so that yu can fight back if and when it does happen again hun....u will only know if that time comes again or not..and yu cannot sit around at nite, wondering when and if that is gonna take place. ..You have or are preparing yurself, and yur chances of coming out alive are now, better than most.
I think when yu wake up afraid, Adam has a good wonderful idea...come here and chat, talk to someone hun, so yu will feel better and that will help empower yu also xx HUGZZZZZZ!

Punkee 01/29/2009

okay. so I'm supposed to come on here for 8-9 hours when I can't sleep and talk about everything and nothing? =/

Punkee 01/29/2009

I feel like I need to go back to counseling (i never really finished it. I just stopped going) but again, no one in my house speaks of it and I'd like to keep it that way. But I have no money and can't go anywhere without parent consent (i think). i dont want to ask for the money because my parents will get suspicious.

ZAZAS 01/29/2009

It must be scary to have to live in fear like this. Please tell your parents, and maybe they can get you some help for all that anxiety. I can't say what the guy will or not do, but it must be terrible to live in fear like this.

deleted_user 01/29/2009

Sometimes we hear all kinds of crap outside my house. Cars beeping, people coughing, dogs barking. It's part of living in a city. I am sorry you are terrified every night, could ask the neighbors if the person that was in the truck was a friend of theirs? You should try to testify hun to get him locked up. Hope you feel better xo

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