Every little bump, noise, or movement outside scares me. Why? Because I'm terrified of the guy that molested me 3 years ago. Absolutely terrified. He knows I reported him. I was subpeanoed a month or so ago to go to court and testify against him. I couldn't do it. I couldn't face him and I couldn't speak about what happened. I was scared. And now? I can't sleep at night because I'm afraid he's going to show up and try and kill me. Why he would have any intention to hurt me more? I don't know. But I'm sure it's possible. Okay, so a few minutes ago I heard a car beeping outside. I peaked out my window and saw a truck slowly going by my house. I think I heard them pull out of the neighbors driveway, but I'm not sure. All I could think was "it's him". I mean, who leaves someone's house at 330 in the morning? And I have these rush of thoughts everytime I hear something outside, everytime my dogs bark during the early hours of the morning because of it. I live my nights sleepless and in fear. I spend my days trying to sleep, in fear, and dealing with school. I can't handle it anymore. What am I supposed to do?
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