Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
That thought keeps plaguing me. The abuse I experienced growing up is probably the main reason. My mom told me she wished I were never born. About 2 months ago she called me a bastard. About two years ago my dad told me he was 'going to f'n kill me and wipe the floor with my blood'. I could fill pages with this kind of stuff. They are truly sick people.
I struggle with massive feelings of inferiority and worthlessness. The paradox is that I overall like the person I turned out to be. As children we are like little computers being programmed. The programming I received was full corrupted and full of viruses and now I have to work out the kinks as an adult. It's really hard to not believe the sick lies I was told, even though there is tons of evidence proving their falsity. You know, as a male, I don't think there is anything worse than a father telling his son he is worthless POS and a mistake. What made it worse was that I totally looked up to the guy. I always tried to get his approval but he just kept setting the bar higher and higher. Nothing was ever good enough. When I finally stopped seeking his approval he cut me off, which is a good thing.
I am trying to change my thoughts and am getting better overall. Some days are worse than others. Anyone else in the same boat?
I struggle with massive feelings of inferiority and worthlessness. The paradox is that I overall like the person I turned out to be. As children we are like little computers being programmed. The programming I received was full corrupted and full of viruses and now I have to work out the kinks as an adult. It's really hard to not believe the sick lies I was told, even though there is tons of evidence proving their falsity. You know, as a male, I don't think there is anything worse than a father telling his son he is worthless POS and a mistake. What made it worse was that I totally looked up to the guy. I always tried to get his approval but he just kept setting the bar higher and higher. Nothing was ever good enough. When I finally stopped seeking his approval he cut me off, which is a good thing.
I am trying to change my thoughts and am getting better overall. Some days are worse than others. Anyone else in the same boat?
The funny thing was that I was a mommas boy. I share the feelings of not being good enough I guess because of how my mom acted sometimes. My parents are Christians but I am agnostic, It feels to much like taking sides.
I have a great empathy for others so this place lets me try give insight to those that need it.
I cant really give you advice because I think you are head in the right direction. You are a bright individual and even thou we did not face the same type of trauma as a child I feel very much like you. I also lost my wife on March 3rd and am learning to live with that. My father is still around but I care for him and that is a full time job.
One foot in front of the other friend I hope ur book of life has many chapters of joy and love to come
I also struggle with inferiority and worthlessness. Like you, deep down I know that I'm a good person. I think my main problem is that I compare myself and my life to others rather than being proud of who I am.
I'm 45 and I have just gotten over the deal with not being as smart as my siblings.
The rest of it--what my mother did and what folks did in school and in my town still remains.
You sound like someone that is going to be fine as someone said you are headed in the right direction.
You are fighting against those biting comments and actions and realising they don't have to define you.
It's interesting to me how some people had the worst possible childhoods and prosper in life and others had a terrific family and can have a failure to thrive life. It says, I suppose, that it's all in how we MAKE it happen for ourselves.
Keep on trucking through life and be your best you. Thanks for sharing!
My marriage ruined my life. my husb is going to kill me, the gas tank rusted and gas was all over the street, I got out of car, firemen came, and car was towed away, still think husband did this....