Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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marguerite568 02/18/2016

I wish I wasn't in this world. My whole life has been a tragedy. My mother dying when I was 5...all the fall out..the sex abuse, I was never important to anybody..certainly never worth fighting for..I was disowned by my 'well to do' family at age 16 for becoming pregnant and refusing an abortion..and I have walked alone ever since.. Regardless of me trying w/ every ounce of my being to protect my own children from sex abuse...I failed...my own son molested his own sister who was 8 yrs younger than he...essentially killing the person she would have become...and today at 30 yrs old - He is very withdrawn and I strongly suspect he is a pedophile..The relationship between my children and I is practically non existent..My husband just died of cancer 6 months ago..and I can barely go on...there seems no place for me on this earth..and I am constantly aware of the countless evils happening in this world and all the suffering..I can barely take it..at times I fear I will go mad...I find this world to be a place very cold in which I don't belong...I am not interested in any meds..I have taken many things in the past and am very strongly against them..I do use herbals to help w/ stress and relaxation..and I pray...I am really in a valley right now...It is not always this way..many times God supernaturally protects me..and I do have peace and even happiness...losing my hsband has shook my foundations...and I am very very depressed at the moment..I hate being in this world...and I am very insignificant to this world..I just don't belong here..

Tedward 02/18/2016

I'm sorry you feel so terrible! I'm also sorry you loss of your husband, it sounds like he was your rock! Grieving can be a difficult journey, especially on top of depression. Can you find a counselor? They don't prescribe drugs. They are there to listen and can offer you support and suggestions for coping with the past and present. I was uneasy on my first visit! That was 6 years ago and now she is a good friend! There are also support groups for people who have lost a loved one. Hope you feel some relief soon! Ted (((HUGS)))

koolman 02/18/2016

Honey, I know how you feel. In the immortal words of Richard Dreyfuss' character's dad in the movie The Apprenticeship of Duddy Kravitz: "The world is full of shits...so exercise." Sometimes, in order to fight evil, you have to become a bit evil yourself, and a strong, healthy body creates a strong, healthy mind and spirit, a healthy anger if you will, to fight those demons in others and even in yourself, those negative voices in your head, perhaps passed down by your ancestors, telling you "you're no good, you're a slut, you'll never amount to a damn" etc. Tell those voices in your head and in the head of any other demon who says these things to you to go F themselves. Dig deep, push and you'll find reservoirs of strength. Baby steps: Just do whatever you can. Even a walk around the block helps.

There's a Fitness Goals group here that I've found very helpful in supporting each other in our physical fitness practices.

koolman 02/18/2016

There's also a Bereavement group here, where you can share your experience of grief from losing loved ones with others, that really helped me when I was in a very dark place in my mind, heart and soul after my brother died of cancer and sepsis after tumor removal surgery at the tender young age of 40 when I was almost 41. We were only 13 months apart in age, extremely close. He was my YOUNGER brother, whom I'd come to idolize for his physical stature, he was about 5 inches taller than I am, and his bravery! He was the one person, when other people and relationships came and went, who I thought would always be here, I'd come to depend on him being here, and guess what...life throws us these curve-balls. I'm STILL in a dark place at times, because I feel the absence, the black void where he used to be, but we form NEW relationships, and I've formed several NEW "brothers", different and with their own unique requirements but equally good since he passed away, so you see, the world is full of abundance.

Desigol1979 02/18/2016

(((Magurite)))

I was abused as a little boy and I always fear that I am naturally drawn to young Girls. By God's grace I have never committed a Sex Crime to date.

There is a group 'Families of Sex Offenders' and 'Families of Prisoners'. Hopefully they will understand how you feel.

ThePepperMan 02/18/2016

I don't think that any of us are insignificant in this world; we just need to assert ourselves a bit more to be a bigger part of it.

Try reaching out, by casting a very large net. Every time we go out into the world we can become part of it and make it better. Hold the door for the next person at where ever you are that does not have automatic doors. Say hello to strangers who just look like they need somebody to say hello to them. Compliment people on something you see in them that you like or appreciate or respect.

I find that doing these little things helps me feel more like a part of my little corner of the world, a significant part of that corner!

Gentle hugs

WanderingVet 02/18/2016

I want you to know how much I sympathize with you. More than your share of offenses. I think I can understand how you feel. I probably would feel the same.

However I do care about YOU, ... and happiness can be found ... for just about anyone. The PURSUIT of happiness. It SOMETIMES comes on its own, ... but otherwise, it has to be sought/pursued. If you give up, .. you lose, .. if you pursue, .. you will capture.

>>many times God supernaturally protects me..and I do have peace and even happiness

There ... right there, .. is the beginning of everyone's salvation. You do not have to settle for what He decides to bestow. You can ASK ... and you WILL receive. What you receive is up to you as what to do with it. As you say, He has bestowed.

I SURELY do NOT believe it is hopeless. You have some insights the hopeless do not have. Don't give up, .. keep a positive attitude, .. GIVE happiness and you will receive it, ... and have faith.

Your life holds more ... and it can be pretty good if you learn some things about it you may not know.

Keep the faith.

bridgie101 02/19/2016

I am very sorry for your loss, and I'm very sorry you are so low right now.

Perhaps a way to handle things is to hunker down and just be there for your daughter and hopefully, when you can, your son. Have you had counselling? When you recover from your molestation you can see more of a future for your daughter. And your son. Nothing but death is unsurviveable. if you can physically survive something, you can emotionally survive it and have it increase your size and capacity; not make it smaller. I'm talking from my own experience here: nothing is the end of the world, except for the end of the world. :)

survivor69 02/19/2016

GOOD 4 U NOT HAVING THE ABORTION!
I BELIEVE IN PROLIFE MYSELF.
U HAVE BEEN THRU ALOT HUN'.
KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK AND STAY IN TOUCH WITH US!
I JUST TOLERATE THIS WICKED WORLD WITH THE HELP OF THE LORD ON MY SIDE.................................
EVERYDAY IS A STRUGGLE.
GBU
DRENA B
PS. SORRY 4 THE LOSS OF YOUR HUBBY

gramybear 02/19/2016

I replied to your last journal... I want to send you prayers, and lots of gentle hugs!

whatswrong19 02/21/2016

That was good advice pepper. I'm often so wrapped up in my own world I don't look around and see others needs. I should do those things more often myself

juanmoreau 02/21/2016

Life? Only a demon would enjoy the world we live in all the time. Any same and intelligent person would feel as you do. Losing a partner is so very tough, as losing a limb and my heart goes out to you.
Treat yourself today, to a simple bar of your favorite chocolate and goes for a brief walk, cut yourself some slack. Even if it's just for an hour.
Your past sounds very traumatic yet you have shown strength just writing your feelings down with such gentle words.
Drop me a line whenever you can, big hugs

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