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I hate myself

volcano63
volcano63

I work 4 jobs and I try to be responsible with all my financial obligations. But last week my old car broke down and needed $1350 worth of repair. I went to my credit union to try and get a loan for a new one, but they turned me down because my debt/credit ratio was too high. So I had to ask the church where I work to help me with the car repair bill. They are taking some of it, and I'm grateful, but I hate myself for having to ask. I hate myself more and more every day.

gratefulgrandma123
gratefulgrandma123
It sounds like u r working very hard and doing your best and I am so sorry u r going through this. It was very nice of your church to help u. I’m not sure what else u can do. U r doing your best. I hope u will give yourself a break and not be too hard on yourself. Hugs and love
WendiLaine
WendiLaine
I am sorry you are feeling this way. From what I read, it sounds like you are doing the best you can and I applaud you for that.
Tryingmybest02
Tryingmybest02
Volcano63- you are working 4 jobs, thats amazing. Sometimes its hard to work even one! You are also getting on here honestly sharing how you are feeling. Again, thats great! KEEP TRYING. KEEP GOING. JUST DO YOUR BEST! You've got this, one day at a time!
Osheana
Osheana
Hiii Volcano,
You mentioned that you were grateful in as much as the church is supporting and helping. I understand that you are in between emotions of struggle
and being anxious and then turning these feelings if negative towards
yourself. I think you should pace your feelings, If you are grateful ,bask in this,
allow yourself to bask in this for a long long long time. Please try to focus on
being grateful and nothing else. I understand that the mind is tough to
train but try it,
If you say you hate yourself, These words are fuel that feed your mind.
If you say I love myself. These words are fuel that feed your mind,

So you want to be picky with the type of Fuel feeding your Mind,
When you feed anything it is that which crops up and continues to grow.
Chop the thought out and replace and repeat,
Love and Light!!
limenavy
limenavy
It seems to me that we all need help for something at some point in our lives. It's okay to need help; we were made to need each other. Is there anything about your current financial situation that could be changed? Have you tried any finance apps/software or even personal financial management services or financial advisor?
Bobby5000
Bobby5000
You work 4 jobs and are doing your best. Just promise yourself that when you get the money you will pay it back, and be proud of your self-sacrifice, work towards your goals and things will hopefully get better.
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