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I feel so stupid for this

Heidiclark
Heidiclark
I can't believe that I'm actually going to talk about this because I feel like the biggest idiot---like what the hell is wrong with me---but my sister in law is coming over tommorow to help me with some house cleaning and part of me just feels like I don't want her to come because mylife is such a mess and I really can't deal with people at all. I avoid people like the plague and can't really even make small talk very well since my mind goes completely blank. I don't know----I mean, I want her to come and yet it just takes so much energy to clean house and actually try to have a somewhat normal conversation for the hour and a half that she'll be here.
I don't know what to think.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I wish someone would come help me. I would not even care if they discussed it with other people. I am overwhelmed. Talk to her when she arrives. I am sure she willl keep your confidences. I wish we were like little kids when we didnt feel embarassed to ask for help.
Kuno78
Kuno78
Don't feel bizarre by your emotions because I would feel the same way.
ElenaNJ
ElenaNJ
i have been there. you are at a low point, and u feel like alienating yourself.

yes, like mj said, it can help possible to open up to her, and tell her you're feeling low. however, only if you're close w/ ur sil.

i'm sorry that you're feeling bad. there is a way to dig out and you are stronger than you know.

as for the house, god, i have been there! if she must come, just get a big basket & put everything in it. wipe bathroom w/ baby wipes, no thorough cleaning, it doesn't have to be perfect.

and if you're really not up to it,,,cancel. i've done it. just make sure to reschedule when ur feeling better.
Heidiclark
Heidiclark
Thanks everybody for your comments. The good news is that it went really well and we both actually had fun. I feel like I making a real breakthrough here and that's such a great feeling. I have isolated myself for so long that I really didn't know what to do or even where to start in terms of trying to connect with people. I'm just so glad that my sister in law took the initiative to stop by four weeks ago and ask me if I needed any help. By then I was crying. I told her that I really needed help but just couldn't ask anybody. I'm always afraid of being judged and criticized and then end up with a depression that's even worse than ever---and I can't afford that.
heretic
heretic
I feel the same way, can't deal with people at all, I even have trouble visiting with my best friend - don't know why she puts up with me. It is so hard, and feels like hell, just something you have to go through and know that it will be over soon... (((Hugs)))
deleted_user
deleted_user
I've been there.....(((((HUGS)))))