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I Feel like I Want to Die Every Morning

SomeGuy092
SomeGuy092

I'll try to be short. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I wake up every morning not wanting to do a thing. I keep thinking, "I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to live anymore. I don't want to wake up anymore." Sometimes, I try to ignore it and it works. Other times, it doesn't work and I would sleep through the morning until around 3:00 PM. Today, I woke up feeling like I want to die, again. This time, I missed my college class I was supposed to attend today. I slept through the day again. This kind of thing happened before throughout this semester. I only have two classes this semester and I can't get anything right. So, I felt worse and I went back to sleep. I'm lazy, I'm a failure, and I feel like killing myself everyday. I eventually get out of bed because my mother comes back to house after her job around the afternoon. She would nag me to get out of bed if she found me still lying in bed. I try to ignore these thoughts throughout the days. There's always a thought in the back of my head. Ultimately, I still want to kill myself. Thank you for reading this.

ShepherdGen
ShepherdGen
And i feel like ive wasted my entire life for school and videogames.. you know it feels like the time was taken away from me.. although i dont know what else i could have done. I have achieved nothing yet and i am quickly getting old. Hm... there must be a better way to live...
rafael7715
rafael7715
I was getting more and more depressed and suicidal so I talked to my sponsor and he told me to increase my 12 Step meetings and I did. I now go to 3 meetings a week. I haven't been suicidal in quite some time now! Put some structure in your days. The joy will follow! :)
Fenrir1998
Fenrir1998
I’ve found that being needed helps me when I want to check out.
It doesn’t have to be a relationship or family

It could be a pet or a plant

Or a neighbor whose trash you take out

For me it’s a 16 year old deaf blue heeler named “poppy”

I honestly live for that dog to make here last years as happy as possible

But it can be as simple as a Walmart aloe plant named “Herbert”

I can’t go because poppy needs me

Try to find a mission of sorts and I think it could help
shadowlady
shadowlady
I read your profile. You're young. You have your whole life to make things better. Maybe you need a reason to get up in the mornings. Why are you taking only a couple of classes? Maybe you could find a job for the days you don't have school(a reason to get out of bed). Find things to keep your mind occupied. Exercise helps depression too. Blessings to you.
SomeGuy092
SomeGuy092
Thank you everyone. @shadowlady I only take two classes because I can't use my governemnt grant. And now I'm applying for student loans from the government which are only enough for two classes per semester.
JazzyLady
JazzyLady
You don't want to do it anymore than DON'T. Yes it is that simple. DON'T!!!!! Classes aren't doing it for you then DON"T take them anymore. Find classes that interest you or drop out. You don't want to wake up anymore than DON"T. Sleep until you can't sleep anymore and you do want to get up. You are young, been beat up (emotionally) to many times. Give yourself a break. Take a deep breath. You have the rest of your life to decide what is best for you. I have faith in you, I believe in you. You are stronger than what you give yourself credit for. DON"T end your life over people who cared less whether you lived or died, DON"T give in to them. DON"T let them win. DON"T
robotnik
robotnik
I wonder what it would take to change it around completely - what would it take to make you feel like you want to live? Another brain? ; )
pluvophile99
pluvophile99
I think we are allowed to feel like that,,sometimes life drags us through the murkiest of roads,,,and we are allowed to break down and cry and feel crappy and express our feelings out...but one thing we are not allowed to is give up,,, so take your time feel crappy,,,feel devastated,,,feel like you can pull your hair out of your head,,,break down cause the best thing about hitting rock bottom is,,,there's only one way to go and that is up
windandsky
windandsky
If I eat a lot of processed foods, I feel depressed. I have recently been trying to cook and prepare more whole foods.
Drake6302
Drake6302
These feelings might need someone to help you sort them out. If your school has someone or groups that deal with depression. These resources could help immensely. When I was your age I dropped out of college then spent nearly 8 months just lying on my mother's couch sleepingb and watching television. I finally found a job and then the lady that would become my wife for 26 years. I could of shortened that time if I had of accepted my depression then. Instead it was nearly twenty years later that I was diagnosed. And yet another twenty years now and I have a new diagnosis. Things are always changing for me. For you I hope they can change for the better.
SomeGuy092
SomeGuy092
Thank you everyone. I'm sorry for sounding sappy,but your words made me feel more motivated. Thank you
@robotnik I don't think another brain is going to help lol. I'm not entirely sure brain transplants work xD Thanks

@canadman815 I have positive people in my life. They're my church members, neighbors, my family, my psychiatrist, and my counselor. I don't have any friends in real life. I feel okay with what I'm studying, but I honestly lost a passion for it and everything else. Yet, I decided to sleep more properly and start eating and drinking healthy. I used to drink a lot of soda and less water. I'll also try to start exercising. Thank you
robotnik
robotnik
It doesn't sound sappy. You're welcome : ) We'll be smarter in the future with optional brain upgrades. https://www.theatlantic.com/technology/archive/2014/05/upgrade-our-brains/362057/

Good move: eating, drinking and sleeping properly : ) You can treat yourself to a soda every now and again. Good that you're surrounded by such a support network...good communication is important. Sorry to hear you don't have any friends in real life; hopefully one will come along sometime.
SomeGuy092
SomeGuy092
@robotnik Thanks. I read the atlantic article. It looks like we're getting closer to the sci-fi future xD
robotnik
robotnik
Welcome. We're getting closer alright plus in some ways the future is already here! There's a TV series called 'NextWorld' which gives some idea what the near (20-30 years) future could look like - fascinating!
MzDonald430
MzDonald430
I know the feeling. I often felt this way too. But know that there is help out there. It took awhile for me to find, so many counselors and doctors, but I FINALLY found someone that could and has helped me. Please don't give up. Proverbs 17:22 says that a joyful heart is good medicine. I know trying to find something to be happy about when you're depressed is hard, but maybe make a game of it. Each day I try to find one thing that doesn't completely suck. Sometimes it was simply that I was strong enough to make it another day. Other days I found more. The more I found, the more I could have a positive attitude about, the better I felt. But keep fighting until you can get the help you need. Until then, keep venting to us, we'll listen!
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