Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Nutellina 12/08/2016

No one knows how I feel inside.....I'm dead inside. I'm dead since years and I'm alive only because of my parents ....... but I have no reasons to live. I'm lost, lost inside.........there is nothing that make me feel better or that gives me happyness....I laugh, I'm social, I work, I'm functional, but I just live becuase I can't bring suffering to my family.

But everynight when I go to sleep, or try to sleep, I just think the way I'm going to give up on my life when my parents will die.

My friends, family and my boyfriend have no idea my state of mind....no one know ......it's too inbarassing and the weird thing is that I find it right to think this way. I just don't want to live. It's too difficult, it because impossible..... I'm not planning to kill myself don't worry but in the future I don't see other ways....

Carolin57 12/08/2016

That is a pretty bad place to be in just waiting to give up and die. I don't rightly know how to ease your suffering. But I have some time if you need me to listen?

Nutellina 12/08/2016

I know it's not good but I guess I'm in this state of mind since too long and I can't bare it anymore. Yes it would be helpful......

Carolin57 12/08/2016

Have you considered therapy being able to talk helps some people, but it's not for everyone. Often times a feeling of hopelessness can seem exhausting and will zap your energy on top of everything else. You say you are lost inside, other than to be dead where would you rather be?

Nutellina 12/08/2016

Problem is that I don't have any reasons to do anything even if my external situations are not that bad...... but I went throughout a lot and I don't wish anything anymore.....
I really don't know what I would be....... I have no reasons to do or be. I have no strength or wishes

Lease 12/08/2016

I'm sorry and I relate. My son is my only reason but that isn't even that strong when I'm extremely down in my hole. I look at him and everyone as if they're better without me. ...message me if you need to vent. I'm here.

Carolin57 12/08/2016

You sound quite deflated and defeated. I spent a year like that and stayed that way for a year while life went on around me. I couldn't enjoy anything just existed but all around me my family supported me. I was lucky that it didn't last longer but also I was urged to seek help, although I didn't want it. I was talked into it and ended up on two types of anti depressant which at least get me up in the mornings and give me reason to go on. Would you consider any Medication? Have you been on medication before and how do you feel about anti depressants?

whatswrong19 12/08/2016

I wanted to say I have read your post, I know how it feels to be there, but medication has helped me pretty well. I still have hard times when I find out bad news about my dad's declining health, or when people who I thought were my friends reject me. and I become negative, and just smoke cigarettes and pull hairs out with tweezers off my legs and arms. otherwise to sit and think, well I just don't want to sit and think, cause that usually equals even more depression and hopelessness.

Nutellina 12/08/2016

Thank you Lease,
I so understand what you mean....thank you so much for your offer to inbox you.

Nutellina 12/08/2016

Carolin and whatswrong....I tried once to take antidepressants but I had a very bad experience because my state got much worse and I start having suicidal thoughts ..... very strong ones!! So I'm not sure how to approve that..... I'm not against it especially right now.

Diane-M 12/08/2016

I can relate as well. I cry when I wake up in the morning because I go to bed hoping I won't wake up. But I told my husband, my therapist, and my psychiatrist. I felt it important that others knew. They are not judging me....well my husband doesn't really understand my level of depression....but I needed him to know. So just know you're not alone and like the others, I am always willing to listen.

Nutellina 12/28/2016

Thank you Diane ....... it s very hard isn't?

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