You summed up so much of my life in just a few sentences.I can so relate to the fear of being alone and depressed my entire life. In more recent years, I have found help through meds, talk therapy, and HP, who happens to be God. I no longer feel depressed and alone all of the time; sometimes, but not always. I've also learned you can have a partner and still feel alone and depressed. I hope you feel better, and find a strategy toward happiness that works for you.

Hello I am writing because I too do not like being alone and depressed. I have been on this site for a while and try to help others out of the slump we find ourselves in. Sometimes It makes me feel better and I hope that I can make someone feel better at least for a while. Getting out of one self can be quite challenging especially when the depressions of life and the futility of living seems to have us down for good. I do have hope that things will get better and cling to that hope for dear life. I myself have problems and have researched how to get better and am in therapy, but it is a very slow process and takes much effort on my part. I have to remind myself that I am not my thoughts and feelings. I have read a few self help books on fear and am trying really hard to come to terms with it. Sometimes it works and other times I have to face what is straight on. I can be a person that you can talk to if you want. Feel free to send me a message or comment here on your post. Respectfully and sincerely.
David

try meetup.com to get out and meet new people....they have singles groups that are age oriented and you can find new friends or a new mate there I am sure....I use it all the time to keep from being alone and lonely....desperation does not work it takes people away from you as you get clingy to them...

You are not alone. Hugs!

I use to work as a nanny before coming home to take care of my mom and when I lived in DC I found a church that had groups that meet once or twice a week. Everyone was really nice and really seemed to understand how I felt. I really hope you can find some people to spend some time with. There are a lot of good groups out there. I will pray for you.

You're thinking about the future.

Cycle that back, think only about today. At worst, next month. Live inside the time you can control, and do what you can now. While we think about the future we do nothing for today.

I have joined a group called the Red Hat Society. It is a group for women. They get together and do different activities. It's not any kind of a cure but it sure helps to get out and have fun with no pressure. I find the more time I spend at home alone the worse I feel.