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I dont recognize me anymore.

alimac2009
alimac2009
I weigh 260 lbs. I think I finally hit rock bottom and something is going to happen now. Ok, I went to my moms and took a shower. She has one of those full length mirrors in the bathroom. I took off all of my clothes to and accidentally looked in the mirror. I burst into tears at the sight of what I have become. My husband says he loves me no matter what and he loves my body but I dont. I stared into the mirror and it seriously looked as though I was looking at a picture on the internet, not me. I cried even harder at this and started mumbling "what happened to me?"I dont know whats going to happen now, if every morning I will wake up, remember that incident and decide to exercise and diet and work hard to get this off. Or if I will wake every morning, remember this, and decide its not worth it.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I have had self-loathing from being overweight...and the weight came on from depression.. honestly, I think I thought I was going to eat my depression away or something and it lasted years... well, it took a while, but I did work at it, and slowly, ever so slowly... walking just 10 minutes a day at first (all I could do) then building it up, and I was able to go more and more and my willpower got better and better, well I lost the weight (gained some back-not all) and losing it again. So, I have/am struggling with weight gain, and I know how depressing it can be. I think everyone needs to find what works for them...I just gave you what works for me. I use a treadmill (like I was going to walk in public!!!) and I am doing great. I hope I helped.. You can do it.. baby steps.. I understand.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I have days where I don't recognize myself, too. Find other things that make you happy. Peace to you. You seem like a lovely person.
deleted_user
deleted_user
there are two options here. you can hate the way your body looks and do something to change it OR you can come to love your body as it is...

i have a friend who is "bigger" - she is confident, strong, determined, and a go-getter. true, she has a difficult time getting "first" dates, but NEVER a difficult time getting "second" "third" "fourth" etc. dates. i admire her greatly, but i'm not strong enough to be her - so i practice the first option...

BTW: believe your husband...