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I don't want to hurt anymore

BrooklynnMB
BrooklynnMB
I'm not feeling depressed as in clinically. I've been there before and this is not an episode of depression that I'm having. I'm just in constant pain because I don't to live without my ex fiance anymore. I hate this. I miss him so much and I don't know why I ended things with him 5 months ago. Uhh... I hate life right now. What the heck was I thinking? I broke up with him because I thought it was the right thing. I thought I was having doubts. He's the only one for me and I ended it. For what? Now I have nothing. Just me and my pain and my constant tears. I just want to crawl in a hole and die.
anneccleaver
anneccleaver
Second guessing is never an easy thing. There is a part of you that needed to see what was going to happen. I recommend trying to reconnect with other people for a while. While I don't know if writing him a lengthy letter is an option right now I would recommend it sometime soon. -I hope things get better for you
mamamabelle
mamamabelle
is he totally out of your life and no chance for reconnecting? hugs ~ hugs
BrooklynnMB
BrooklynnMB
No, he is not totally out my life. We are still spending about two nights a week together. But he is unsure if he wants to take me back or not yet.
muskrattiger
muskrattiger
Have you tried to talk to him since than ......it might help you to put things in perspective better ......I have just read your last post ......I see ware it is hard on you seeing him and him not being sure he wants you back .....that is a hard place to be but it is good that you are in contact with him if you want to get back with him.......he is not going to be sure for a while ......for one thing he wouldn't want it to happen again .....and it takes time to build back up trust ...but it can be done ...and is done often ....get to know Eather again ...you need to be able to enjoy your time together ....so does he so do things you both like ...there was a reason you broke up with him weather it is in you or in him .if you can find it and understand it it would be helpfull to you if you get back together or even if you end up with someone else .......I wish you all the best .......I will keep you both in my prayers ....god bless
deleted_user
deleted_user
..you are together two nights a week but not together? No wonder you can't get over him. This is really not healthy. To be totally honest he's got his cake and can eat it too, he does not need to decide... but YOU do. You can't get over it until you've got something concrete to even 'get over'

I'd have a sit down and make it clear,, he's either in or out but not both. And then be done with it and then you can commence with the 'getting over' Right now you've not even gotten off the horse to miss the ride. On or off honey. Hugs.
survivor69
survivor69
I BROKE UP WITH SOMEONE 36 YEARS AGO.
NOW HE IS MY HUBBY OF 35 YEARS.
THINK B4 U LEAP.
JUST A WORD OF ADVICE.
gramybear
gramybear
That is good news. You are spending 2 nights together. Now, it's important to make sure he remembers why he was with you and what he loves about you. I would sustain talking about what you feel you have done wrong, how bad you are feeling now, etc... because that just may confuse him and just may make him wonder more why you did end it. Think of positive things when you are together, be supportive, positive, and let him know how much you care. If you are having trouble getting the words out, then a thought out letter may help. Don't think negative thoughts because it's obvious that it's not over but if you aren't careful, you just may cause it to end without meaning to. Hugs GB
deleted_user
deleted_user
Got to go with Peppers on this one. Sounds to me like your back to sugar coating. You separated for a reason? Hands have been played and you (or he), have seen the true colors. Once the icing is gone, your back to the true person. I say cut to the chase and deal with what you didn't like.