Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I just came from an appt. with my therapist and I feel worse. I've been in bed the past few days, not wanting to do anything. This is the first time I've been out. It's too hot to be out.
I hate everyone in my life today. I hate my daughter for dying. I hate my friends for not being there when I need them. I hate my sister for being the emotionless robot she's always been. I hate my son for not being able to "handle" me when I'm depressed. I hate the man I love for being with another woman. I hate myself for still loving him.
My therapist gave me this exercise where I write down my negative thoughts and rewrite them positively and cross out the negative ones. I'm supposed to read these to myself every day. It's all lies. Why bother. If I was all these positive things then why am I alone on a holiday weekend? If I was such a great mother why did my daughter drink herself to death? If I'm such a loving person then why did my partner cheat on me?
I was wondering if I died today how long it would take anyone to realize it. It's one of those days that the thing that's keeping me alive is that I haven't figured out how to not be.
We are here and we care for you. I pray that you will have peace as you go through this season. Please don’t give up.
Take care and I hope you will feel better soon. God bless.
At a guess, your counselor detected a pattern of negative thinking, and suggested an exercise to help break that pattern. It might not be the right one, but breaking the pattern will get you back on the path to feeling better. Pollyanna.