Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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WhateverPopPop 04/06/2018

I keep harming myself. I keep starving myself. I keep making myself suffer. Why keep going? I want to die. I hate how I have to mess everything up! I hate how ugly I am, how much of a coward I am, how annoying I am, how much of an obnoxious perfectionist I am, how flawed I am, how lazy I am, how fat I am, how rude I am. Ugh, I just want to puke at my own name! I can’t stand it! I’ll never be good enough. I’ll never be accepted. I’ll never find true friends that’ll always have my back no matter what. I’ll never stop crying. Crying is for wimps. I can’t stop crying. I don’t want to cry anymore. I want to kill myself. I’d do anything for that. I tried choking myself, freezing myself, starving myself, not giving myself enough sleep, and harming myself. It’ll be better if I was dead. I wouldn’t have to bother anyone else, and I wouldn’t have to suffer. I mean, I don’t have anyone to talk to, and whenever I do, I have nothing to spit out. I can’t stop. I want to die. Nobody cares about me. Everyone keeps spreading horrible rumors about me. Everyone keeps wanting me to kill myself. I’m not worth it. I’m not special. I want to die. I don’t want to be alive. I want a bullet ingrained in my head. I want a knife stabbed in my chest. I want a flatlining monitor. I don’t care if I’ll die in oblivion. I do not want to live anymore.

Rayne452 04/07/2018

Why punish yourself for the stupidity of others ? I'm sure there is something in your life that you can hold to. I've been humiliated also as a kid. Back at school everyone was laughting at me, because "I wasn't at their level". Every day was a nightmare !The idea that just a few more years an I'll never see them again. Just take a break from everything dear, relax your troubled mind. Go to the beach or in the mounten to clear it all.Stop torturing yourself. I'm with you, I know what youre going thru.Meaning of life is not just pain. There are good moments, you just have to see them.Thrust me, all that " luggage" you carry, is not worth it.

robotnik 04/07/2018

''Truly, My Satan, thou art but a Dunce, And dost not know the Garment from the Man. Every Harlot was a Virgin once,"
William Blake.

Nobody cares about me
God cares about you.

Everyone keeps wanting me to kill myself.
Not everyone - I don't want anyone to kill themselves.

Anyone who can come up with such a cool username:
Whatever PopPop
deserves to live and keep on sharing their creativity.

Your attempts at suicide reminded me of the movie 'Groundhog Day' with Bill Murray - have you seen it?

Heidiclark 04/07/2018

That's an awful lot of self hatred. Sending prayers

gregsbaby 04/07/2018

You either need to call the suicide hotline @ 1-800 273-8255 or your local crisis center/go there or go to ER NOW! I think you should go to the ER because you need to be admitted to inpatient care NOW before you do anything else to harm yourself.

RJW 04/07/2018

Thank you for sharing. Depression does beat us down and lies to us in telling us we are worthless. You showed great courage in sharing your suffering. Enduring that everyday is great strength and inspiring to me and others. Thank you for that. The strongest of us still need help. The strongest weight lifter still needs a spotter. No shame in that or in you seeking out help. A Counselor or Therapist can be of great help to help you better understand yourself, and they can refer to a Doctor, if medication is needed. If things get beyond our control, then medication is there to bring things back into control. That is if medication is needed. I find purpose and hope in my faith, thusly I will pray for you. I hope that doesn't offend. Thank you, again. Hope this helped at least a little bit. God Bless.

Ashley602338 04/14/2018

I have gone through these same feelings at least once a week, I hope you know that there are people who care about you. Im here for you if you need to talk. Ans we are all here for you as a community! You do what you believe is right but remember that whatever your feeling is not actually you but your mental illness! Byee

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