Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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aaligirl 09/08/2010

All I do is cry and cry and cryyyyy ....I can't take this anymore ... my ex boyfriend who I fucken live with treats me like shit ....tells me we will be together ... that he just needs time ... gets me pregant screams at me tells me not keep it if I am then when I take care of it he tells me we could have kept it ... wow wow wow ...he tells me he wants just space and wants to be with me in the future he uses me and my money ....takes his phone everywhere ...and I see is ex half nake on his phone her class ring in his truck ...why does he do this to me?????!!!!! ....tells me he just wants time for himself ...but does this? ...he hit me 3 times this weekend for the first time ...then said sorry hit me infront of his racing buddies they said nothing ... then he said sorry ... I don't get it ... he wants me but wants space what wants someone else? ...and just keeps me around? ...and then he said give him a week ...but what then then not a week? ... all I do is cry ...and now after taking care of the preganecy yesterday ..he couldn't even take care of me ...and we will see if he takes care of me today .... probably not ...he would rather go hangout with his ex cuz she is everything I'm not ....my parents don't care nor do they understand what's going on with me ...I'm sooo depressed I'm in sooo much debt at 21 .... and no one cares they just hear me cry ...and bitch ... tell me to stop ...why is he doing this to me ...he knows I do nothing but love him ...and he uses me ... I sit here at school in sooo much pain because ..of the abotion and I can barely walk but I can't miss anymore school ...I went from getting As and Bs to getting straight Ds .... I use to love school it was my favorite ...now I don't wanna be here and I am scared that they are gonna kick me out of my program ... my life was soo much better before ... and I didn't realize he was my rock he was all I had ...my family has dissappeared ...and now look ...I have noone .... I just wanna to take my life ... my baby sissy is 2 yrs old ... and I don't want to be her role model so I stay away ...look at me ...I'm nothing ...I will never been a good role model so why try? .... whyyy???? I feel there's nothing to live for ... not just because this stupid boy but because of everything else .... ugh someone please help me ...I can't even get of bed ... helppp

deleted_user 09/08/2010

Hey there. It sounds like you have been having such a hard time. it also sounds like it is time to put you first for a while. Maybe to stay in bed today is the best choice for you. It will take time for your body to heal and that is very important right now no matter what the future holds. I don't like to think about anyone in the begining of an abusive relationship. Physical violence seems to breed more violence. There are so many women who I'm sure wish that they were in your situation right now. Thinking that if they had made different decisions when their boyfriends or husbands had just began to abuse them. Please don't take that opportunity away from yourself. You are the most important person to think about right now. Any kind of medical procedure can have complications. I know that your emotional trauma is not helping you to think about yourself either. There are a lot of years to be that role model that you want your sister to have. I think the best thing you can do right now is to take care of yourself. No one can make us feel unworthy. But, we can allow them to. That is often because we don't feel we are very good anyway. You obviously have a heart for caring. I wouldn't even begin to tell you what you should or shouldn't do about the situations that you are in. You are so young and I hate to see you suffering so much. If there is any way that you can find someone to listen I think it would help you so much with all these questions. There are counselors at some schools and there are usually mental health clinics and there are crisis lines available 24/7. When situations are just so jumbled and confused sometimes it helps to just talk them through with someone. This would be just for you. You deserve to seek something that will help you get started to understanding where you are and where you want to be in the future. God Bless you with comfort and strength. I'm glad that you felt you could reach out. ..... there are a lot of caring people here.

deleted_user 09/08/2010

Hi there,

Could I ask you to read what you wrote please?

This guy is a horror show and you need to get away from him. You say he is your rock but that rock is bashing you around.

Leave him and live, there are plenty of guys who don't need to abuse a woman to be a real man. This guy is a weak kneed coward who abuses you for nothing. Sounds like he also cheats on you.

Dump him, move on and away, forget him he doesn't love you.

You know all this so act on it while you can.

ElenaNJ 09/08/2010

you are not being treated the way that you deserve, which is with kindness and respect.

you are in the middle of this relationship and it's hard to see it clearly. is there any way that you can take some time to be by yourself.

he sounds really immature and like he is playing head games with you.

he is unable to handle a loving relationship. your little sister needs you too. maybe you should spend more time w/ her and peple that don't make you feel liek shit. your boyfriend sounds very mean & you are a pretty girl. if he keeps trating you this way, it wil eventually take over and your self esttem will be so low.

also, in the community there are low cost services or free that help people get out of debt. call a community guidance center and inquire. start to take control of your own life, without him inlcluded, bcz he only makes you feel sad & crazy & confused.

keep writing. also, go ont the main board, you will get more help there.

deleted_user 09/09/2010

This guy sounds like such an jerk! u need to leave him and he is gonna realize what he has lost. Your such a beautiful girl and sound like a sweet person and you don't deserve to be treated so terribly. Your mind is playing tricks on you so don't give in, this guy is acting like a huge road block in your brain preventing you from success and if you give it some time you will find things that make you happy and realize how stupid he is. If you stay in school you will go so much further in life, no matter how painful it is right now. In a couple years it will pay off, by then you will have forgotten all about this asshole guy and you will find one that will treat you right. try to see if you can get some student grants from your college, those are really helpful. I hope you get better :)

reddog201 09/09/2010

he is only abusing you and using you its only going toget worse and it makes it harder to leave the longer you stay is there a battered womans shelter near you?
if so go to one its location is kept secret so he could not get find you try the wyca they have as part of what they. do

deleted_user 09/09/2010

You don't know how much you are worth! You don't need him at all but you won't see that until after you break up with him. And never go back to him, that is an endless cycle.

What we women do sometimes is tell ourselves we'll never find someone better or that no one else will love us, so we stay in our current situation. It's a hard painful road, but you have to leave. You have to right now!!! You will be soooo glad you did.

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