I know what you mean. I've been doing everything I can think of to manage not wanting to kill myself every night. Just the feeling of being overwhelmed by trying to figure out how to continue living is enough to make even the strongest person sick. Don't give up because you're not alone. Just by you being on this forum shows that you have a will to live just a little longer, keep going.

I'm just so lost .I just got up for the work week .And I feel so angry that I'm still alive .I wish I died last night .I guess I got to keep trecking along but for how long :(

One thing a counselor once told me was to celebrate the little things. Celebrate that you got out of bed for the day, celebrate that you put your shoes on and walked out the door. I know that's a lot easier said than done. Can I ask what's hurting you the most today?

I hate my job .They give me no respect, they hate me and I get treated like shit and I suck at my job :( overall it's a shit show

I'm sorry. I was stuck in that situation for an entire year and I know how damaging it can be to you as a person. I know it can be hard to picture change when you're feeling so overwhelmed with life and unfortunately a job is necessary in life. What type of options do you have in removing yourself from this job? I guess more importantly where would you like to see yourself in the workplace?

I have to work here till the end of July then I plan on quiting after I finish student teaching.but that just seems so far away .Every day I have crazy anxiety and that leads to me wanting to off myself .Now I'm heading into work and I so desperately want to self harm :(

So you have an out, you just need to make it there. What do we need to do to help you make it to the end of July? Then in July we can help you make it a little further. What methods do you use to prevent yourself from harming?

So you have an out, you just need to make it there. What do we need to do to help you make it to the end of July? Then in July we can help you make it a little further. What methods do you use to prevent yourself from harming?

I hope no one takes this the wrong way, because what I say may sound mean. I spent the last six months wanting to die. I lost my job. My marriage was in bad shape. I had undiagnosed severe pain. my depression hit an ask time low. I didn't talk about it a lot but I thought about it endlessly. I was disappointed when I woke up. I thought about taking matters into my own hands. Then three weeks and one day ago I found out I have cancer. My first thought, there in the doctor's office was "be careful what you wish for". My second thought was "I'm going to die. I'm not ready."

Please look deep within yourselves for that one reason to go on. Please. Death is so permanent. Talk to someone. Call out for help. You can do this. Let's be brave together. #Iwilllisten

The only thing stopping me from hurting myself is knowing that I am supposed to student teach and if I have random cuts all up my arms they might question and not let me do it. So that kind of motivates me to not hurt myself. But right now I just feel like a hot mess. I had. Good day at work yet I still feel depressed and miserable . Nothing seems to help . I thought my new medicine was helping but I guess not . I see my dr in like two weeks . But I don't think she can even help me :(

I know this is really hard right now. Right now how you feel is just right now. You will feel better. Start by asking yourself some questions and answering them for yourself. 1. Have I eaten food today that feels nourishing to me? If you answered no, eat something nourishing right now. 2. Am I well hydrated? If no, take a moment to have a glass of water or make some decaffeinated tea. 3. Have you done something nice for yourself today? If no, do something nice for you. Have you made a list of what you like about yourself? If no, make a list of 5 things and read it outloud to yourself. 5.. Do you need to talk with a counselor right now, do you feel in control of your actions? If no, please text or call this confidential service: Crisis Text Line: TEXT "CONNECT" TO 741741; Also: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Call 1-800-273-8255.

Continue breathing deep, make slow choices. We are here with you.

Sadly part of my depression involves me starving my self and I pretty much my whole life have drank hardly any liquids :/ I'm going to a community band rehearsal now so I am safe .But I might try one of those lines later if things get bad because the desire to self harm just keeps getting stronger and stronger by the minute it feels like :(

I get that. It's hard for me to eat when I am feeling low too. Try to eat something and hydrate. Cashews are really good for depression. They are high in niacin (vitamin B). Pink Grapefruit is refreshing and good for your noggin. Have a good time at rehearsal. Distracting ourselves can be a great tool also. Please do use one of the lines if you need to. You deserve to nourish yourself and feel better.

So far the distraction of rehearsal is helping a little. Plus I'm dehidrated so my legs are cramping so I'm in pain so maybe I can use that pain instead of hurting myself :( idk I just feel lost

You need to call your doctor immediately, not try to wait out 2 more weeks until your scheduled appointment. Not kidding. Your doctor needs to be made aware that you are experiencing this kind of severe suicidal tendencies because of or in spite of the meds. As for the job, if it is really what is making you so miserable and anxious, if it were me,
I would dump it. No job is worth suicide. Ever. Ever. Ever. Ever. That said, if you can work with your docs, maybe increase your therapy schedule so that you can get some of your anxieties about it out in the open, and try to find something about it that is redeeming and worthwhile for the next 60 short days, even if you have to call the crises hotline every night after you get home and then post the daily horrors here afterward to ease the stress during that time, you might consider sticking it out. But again, please do alert your doctors, and therapists to your distress. It could be the very meds you are on that are causing this.