i know how you feel. I would probably not get up either except I have to go to work or i'll be out on the street. i'm sorry you feel so bad. i'm fat too. I feel that way too. if I lost weight things would be better. sometimes you have to force yourself to do stuff even if you are miserable. at least that's what I've noticed about life. it's not fair and it feels bad but the alternative is usually worse.

No, you can't just "be happy", and its not a choice, you're right, I get it. that's not the way to be happy, to be happy you need to surround yourself with the correct things. because there really is hope, you really, really are meant to be alive. having a goal such as weight loss is great! that's the way to regaining peace, have a visible life goal.
And really, really really, God loves you.
Do NOT give up.

are you receiving any depression medical treatment?? any mental health care?

Hi there, I’m sorry you feel so bad. I’ve felt like that for a while now and there’s times I snap out of it for a day an hour, even a week, but only on rare occasions. Sometimes I hate when it happens cause I see what normal feelings are. It took a little time but eventually I came to the conclusion that I want to fight for those moments. One day everyday might feel like that, so I struggle on. It may feel like you’ve given up, but the very fact that you’re here talking and asking for help/advice is doing something. I would like to share my thoughts on childhood and adulthood with you. When I was a kid all I wanted to do was be an adult. No one to tell me what to do, I could do whatever I wanted. Mostly eat a cookie before dinner or stay up late on a school night. Now that I’m an adult I wish I was a kid again. Eat a cookie before dinner and get heartburn or high blood sugar. Stay up late sure, and be drained for work the next day. I think it’s important that we take each day as it comes. We should enjoy every moment at every time. Yes I know easier said than done, but the sooner we realize this the easier it will come over time.

Hi Emma, You are right. You can't just "be happy" just because someone tells you to be happy. And doing something for someone else won't necessarily help either.
There is hope!! Please don't get obsessed about losing weight. Anorexia is, like all other obessions, very dangerous and has hurt many people. Some have even died because of it.
If you want to lose weight, I suggest that you look into a good weight loss program that helps you lose it in a healthy way; and you can make friends along the way too.
Who do you have that you can talk with on a daily basis? Who is the person in your life that you can share your good times and bad times? Who do you help get through THEIR rough times?
You can't handle anything if you try to tackle it all at the same time. What can you do that will give you some joy for today? Do that. Then, look for the next thing and do that. I hope that helps some.

On the days I feel like this, I try to remember the scripture at Psalm 34:18. It says that God is near to the brokenhearted. When i remember how much he cares about me, it makes me want to pour my heart out to him. I know it's hard, but today try taking a walk around the block and just pray as you walk. Idk why exactly, but this always helps me feel better. I hope it helps you too. Feel better hun. Sending hugs your way.

How many times have I heard “ choose happiness”. What a concept! Wow, I can CHOOSE happiness! NOT.
I just got out of my kids bed( she’s never home & I didn’t want to lose my mind on the living room couch)after 3 days of not eating drinking going to the bathroom. I just took Valium & ambien & slept & researched suicide methods relentlessly. And posted here. Twice. I got out of her bed last night & took back my couch & woke up this morning & the fog had lifted quite a bit. I showered put on clothes for the first time & decided to watch some good movies & even did some online shopping which shows I now envision some future
Someone wrote & I paraphrase “ she believed she could. But she was tired. So she rested. And you know what? The world kept turning & everything was ok. She knew she could try again tomorrow”. It was very comforting to me. Are you under a drs care.? Are you on proper meds? I really get how you’re feeling & my heart goes out to you. If you need help ask for it. It’s hard. My mom & my brother don’t believe in mental illness. But you clearly are in pain. There will be good days. I promise you that. Please get a good dr & therapist. Please