everything is horrible. My life is horrible. I'm just deppresed all the time and nothing is helping me. its hard to help myslef. I dont want to do anything. i dont have the enegry for anything. i just want to lay in bed all day. i just cant do this anymore. everything is just too much for me. getting up and taking a shower is too much. doing things that i like is too much like reading. i just hate life and hate growing up. im scared and i feel so alone. it physcialy hurts. everything hurts and i just dont want to do anything.
the only real thing i care about right now is losing weight. losing as much weight as i can. i hate being fat. i just need to keep losing and hopeful that will help with my life.
people just say the same thing to me, be happy or choice to be happy or do something for some one else and help people.
how can i do anything when i just cant get out of bed. i just cant anymore.
It's hard to ask for encouragement but here I am. I've battled depression and anxiety for years. These past 2 years have been a really prolonged bad spell. Today is one of those days, I'm just tired. Tired of battling. And my mountain today? Just trying to make myself get to the grocery store. We need food in the house. I just want to want to live. For simple things to not be monumental tasks...
I was hoping for some feedback here in regards to this. I have had depression and anxiety for a long time, and I've been recovering from it. I've been practicing a lot of spiritual techniques, in addition to making major changes, going to therapy, and changing my mindset. I've noticed as I'm changing my life for the better, well some of my relationships are getting worse. Let me explain....