Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i can't be a normal human and life happily ever after. i fuck everything up without even knowing why. i put myself in situations i promise i will avoid and SURPRISE! it is a fucking mess again. i hate someone and love them at teh same time and can't find the strength to completely leave. i don't even have the financial means to even leave right now and i am so angry. i hate myself, my life, him. i hate everything. why can't things fucking work out for the better ever? why can't i have a fucking normal life and start a family like most people my age. i have no idea what is happening and have no control over anything in my life right now. when i try to take control something else happens to pull it away from me. how am i supposed to be strong when i am being knocked down at every turn? if i wasn't afraid of the consequences, i would love to end it all right now - but i am afraid of the outcome too.... why can't i come down with a terminal disease or get hit by a car? why can't that happen instead of all this?
sounds to me like youre not mad at yourself, youre mad at a relationship that you want but its not happening quite how you want.
my only function in society is... well, not much. i don't think much would change if i wasn't part of it. i have nothing ti contribute to the world - nothing going right.