Please call your doctor or visit the emergency room.
I have thoughts like that too. I always feel like I have some ailment or disease. I am praying therapy will help me with that.
It will get better for both of us. You are not alone!
Sending hugs your way.

Focusing on future events is futile and takes you out of the present moment so you can't live life to its fullest. I'm a pro at that! Obsessing about whether or not you'll get cancer is unhealthy. There is a lot of cancer in my family, including myself so I understand your fear. Are you seeing a therapist to help work through some of these issues?

You may also need a change in medication. Sometimes they just quit working.

Be gentle with yourself and start taking care of yourself again. This may help to eliminate your headaches, weight loss and fatigue.

I don't know the answers yet I do care. I hope you feel better soon.

You didn't go into specifics so I can't speak to what you have contracted, but you said it "can" lead to cancer, but will it...who knows. We can all live life in the realm of a fatalistic view....but what good does it do? We can catasrophize situations up the wazoo but in the end instead of coming up with a way to live with it we end up on a hamster wheel ruminating over and over and over it. I am not minimizing what you are going through in the least, I am just saying don't borrow more problems until you actually have the problem. Deal with what you have NOW....use your energy for that, not to worry about what may come.

It's a tough boat to row if we dwell on the past or worry about the future for too long. Right now is life. Live it. Wishing you some strength and peace to deal with how you are feeling right now. And, yes, be sure to keep in contact with your dr and be truthful about how you are feeling. Depression can be a mind bender for sure and if your meds aren't working, be sure to speak up. Take care and the best of luck to you.

Hey Watchmen smiling and waving:-)

I can definitely relate on how ur feeling and I know its so easy for me to tell u this but U gotta hang on and hang in there boo. U can not let this thing beat u! Try saying the serenity prayer: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Stay positive, laugh, and try to do things to keep ur mind off of it. BIG HUGS!!!!!!! Also let some know who u can talk to over the phone or see in person. I'm praying that u stay strong and BELIEVE that its going to get BETTER!!

go see a pyschiatrist or walk, talk it out with a friend, or listen to music. keep your mind busy.

It sounds like you are in CRISIS MODE. This is the time when you need to be reaching out to those that love you, your therapist/psychiatrist, or calling a hotline such as 1-800-SUICIDE to help guide your next steps. Sometimes when our depression gets out of control we can't think straight and we need others to help us and make decisions. You need to try to have the hotline or a counselor get you admitted into a mental health facility as soon as possible. Recovery is possible and it is ok to ask for help.