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I don't really know where to begin.
I've been feeling awful for so long.. can't really remember the last time I was really happy. Everything is just bringing me down. But when I allow myself to be sad about my life and to feel sorry for myself I begin to feel stupid for feeling sorry for myself when so many people have it so much worse. So I am either wallowing in self pity, or I am angry with myself. Neither is fun and I am getting tired. I just want to be okay.
The past year (ish) of my life has been really hard to get through. I fell in love with the first time and got my heart torn to sunders. School has been more difficult than before. I'm trying to work an impossible financial situation. I'm starting to feel old, in the sense that I feel like I should be further in life at my age then I am. If it hadn't taken me so long to figure myself out (which I'm still doing...) I would have a career right now, or a family, or whatever. Instead, I'm only half way done school. I know everyone's just going to say I'm doing good because I'm at least getting somewhere, even if it's slowly. See, this is the problem with me - I see why I am right and I see why I am wrong. I see the truly negative and the truly positive. I am always fighting with myself.
I am so fucked up.
I've been feeling awful for so long.. can't really remember the last time I was really happy. Everything is just bringing me down. But when I allow myself to be sad about my life and to feel sorry for myself I begin to feel stupid for feeling sorry for myself when so many people have it so much worse. So I am either wallowing in self pity, or I am angry with myself. Neither is fun and I am getting tired. I just want to be okay.
The past year (ish) of my life has been really hard to get through. I fell in love with the first time and got my heart torn to sunders. School has been more difficult than before. I'm trying to work an impossible financial situation. I'm starting to feel old, in the sense that I feel like I should be further in life at my age then I am. If it hadn't taken me so long to figure myself out (which I'm still doing...) I would have a career right now, or a family, or whatever. Instead, I'm only half way done school. I know everyone's just going to say I'm doing good because I'm at least getting somewhere, even if it's slowly. See, this is the problem with me - I see why I am right and I see why I am wrong. I see the truly negative and the truly positive. I am always fighting with myself.
I am so fucked up.
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I am so sorry hun.......like the glass is half full or half empty theory....I have been dealing with things and have been rough for the past year also........and I deal with the black and white theory alot.....it's hard for me to look at the grey.....and I know I should cause no one or the world is perfect. Hugs for you.
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