Oh, and use holy water! In every Catholic Church there is a holy water fount. You just dip your finger in that water and cross yourself. Do you know how to make the Sign of the Cross ? If not, that's okay, you could learn how. Just touch your forehead and say, "In the Name of the Father" then touch the middle of your chest and say, "and of the Son", then touch your left shoulder and say, ...and of the Holy..." bring your hand to your right shoulder and say "...Spirit" Amen. btw, you can do this any time, anywhere, you don't even need Holy Water to make the sign of the Cross. It's simple and powerful.

Then it's during these idol times that you must pray the hardest! Idleness is the devil's workshop! Make the sign of the cross and pray.

I just read your reply, no, those aren't stupid reasons. You need to share those reasons with your therapist, and with your mom. No one likes to be told things like that. But that doesn't mean you should give up on life altogether.

So, when you find yourself reaching to hurt yourself, do you pray at all for help ? Do you say, "Mother Mary, help me. I need you." ? Every time ? Even if you don't believe in her, there's no harm in saying those words. She has given you strength already to make it this far. What did you call it earlier, a miracle ? Miracles do happen. Mother Mary is there for you. She will wrap you in her mantle of love and tenderly show you the way. I'm not trying to convert you, here. I really just want to help you. There is a Truth out there that is bigger than all of us. And when we follow that Truth, miracles happen, lives are saved, and there is peace and happiness within. (okay, sorry if I'm sounding too preachy here, just please take my advice.

Well the sad thing is I have discussed those moments many times with the therapist . He says u need to not let one event change ur whole life . But i just can't find the ability to not let these events rune my life . I almost wonder if they are traumatic events because I constantly reflect on them and I can't let go :(
I have tried the advice . Yet it has yet to stop me :( I have wripped my arm open many times today . It has actually gotten to the point where my arm just hurts all the time regardless of anything touching it or not :(
I just finished a 7 day graduate course . How I finished that during a crisis I don't know .but I did that . Now I'm even more scared because i have nothing going for me now . No work no school . When I have nothing going on I go south mood wise . I'm already so deep in a while what's next ? Death :(

No. Death is not next. There is so much out there for you. So very much. I know that the praying won't help all at once. It's not like a magic spell that if you say those words automatically everything is fixed - prayer doesn't work that way. You've just got to keep on saying it over and over. As often as you feel that urge to rip or cut yourself, that's how often you say those words. Never stop. In time, changes will occur in your life.

You aren't as deep in the hole as you may think. Brighter days are just around the corner. You have to move past those events. It won't be easy, but you have to move past it. Life isn't always going to be kind to us. We all have to deal with it, though.

That's great that you've finished your grad course! You now have time on your hands to do other things, pursue interests, apply for jobs... you have the whole world in front of you! This is an incredible time in your life.....you have so much ahead of you! Don't you see ? You have EVERYTHING going for you now!

Have you offered to help your mom around the house or with anything that she may need help with ? Doing something constructive for others can be one way to keep your mind off of harming yourself. Chin up! Ya know what you need ? A big dose of Shirley Temple!!! Ha! Watching that little girl can brighten just about anybody's mood! :)

I need somthing ..,., currently I can't fall asleep and all I'm doing is lying in bed scratching my scabs . And I can't get out of bed or I will be questioned :( so all I can do is lie here till I pass out . The only other thing I keep doing is i stuff my face in my pillow so I can't breath and wait till I can't take it anymore in hopes I fall asleep In that position :(

Btw I have tried the praying thing don't think I'm ignoring u it just hasn't worked . That being said sometimes I feel like I need to. Be restrained since all I want to do is pick . I know it's gross and stupid but I just seem to have no control to stop :(

Hun, you have got to get yourself together. And change your outlook on life - trust me, death is not what you really want. If I'm right, I'd say what you want is to live a worry-free life where everything goes just right. Life isn't like that, so that's why you say you want to die. You don't want to feel the pain - the emotional pain, anymore.

I know you're not ignoring me. I just want to keep encouraging you to continue doing it - like all the time - because it's not like you just say it a few times and something happens - it's gradual. And, you know, I believe she has helped you already. Otherwise, you wouldn't be here.

Have you had a chance to go to a Catholic Church or chapel ? I understand you can't drive b/c of the situation, I never could drive(because of the epilepsy) and I'm 46. Here's what you've got to do - now, I know y'all are not christian, that's okay. But ask your mom to take you to a Catholic Church. I'll bet if you told her that you think this will help you with your problem, she would agree to it. Make this your mission. Focus your energy on finding ways to get to a Church.

Mention it to your therapist on Saturday. Tell her that you desire to try going - even if it's for just a few minutes or so. I mean, if you really want to stop the picking & stuff, you should try everything, right? Go for it. I believe you can do this.

Yeah so I haven't had a chance to go .... now
It's a new day and I had my sheets wripped off me to get out of bed I don't want to move I have.nothing planed for the day and I don't see the point to getting out of bed . Fast toward to now and I'm finally out of bed but I have nothing going for me today :( just staying in my house and doing what ever chores my mom wants me to do :( that dosnt help my head at all .. I just want this all to end

Well, then you have to get yourself motivated. Whatever chores your mom wants you to do, do them and smile! Play some music while you do them - something cheerful and lively

Smile, smile, smile!!! Even if you don't feel like it - smile anyway! Sing as you go about your daily chores! It's hard to be sad when you're smiling and singing! C'mon! You can get through this!

Have you heard of EFT? It stands for Emotional Freedom Technique. Look it up. It's a way to help you overcome bad moods. I've tried it, and it really works. I don't know why I haven't mentioned it before! http://www.tapping.com/ and http://www.doctoroz.com/article/introduction-emotional-freedom-technique Look into it - it helps! That's why my mood is good!

My first therapist I went to did the tapping thing . Well I just showered and ordered my text books for next semester .... I guess some how I am going to live even if I don't want to . My arm looks like a hot mess currently :/ o well

Chin up, dear. You're going to beat this thing! Your arm will heal - as long as you let it. In time, the emotional pain will heal as well. Follow the advice you've been given by your therapist, and by others who care about you. You can do this!

I'm trying to follow what they say ... but I'm really shitty at it . Most of what they want is for me to brush off the thoughts or negate them when they happen . But the way I have been feeling has been different I can't just rub them off I have to act on them :( it's why I keep hurting myself :(

No. You don't have to act on them. You may want to act on them, but you do not have to. If you feel that you just cannot control this - that you really don't want to do it, but some "force" is making you do this to yourself against your will, then honey, get to a hospital.

Tell your mom, better yet, show this discussion to your mom. Let her read for herself what you've been going through if she won't believe you. Let her see - she needs to be informed of everything you're going through if she's going to help you.

I haven't done it yet today ... but I was out of my house till now :( all my
Mom thinks is by telling me to stop it will work .. but it dosnt cause I haven't stopped