I've finally come to the point that I know that my relationship with my ex is over, but now that we are just talking as friends, I find myself falling back in love with him! Like this is seriously taking its toll on me because I don't know what to do.

I love him and I told him last night I always will, but he left me. He broke up with me (on the 21st) ....and I am having a hard fucking time accepting that its over, but I know that it is really over.

We've been thru a fucking shitload and now I don't know how to act, or how to make everything okay again. I don't know how to live without him and I don't know what to do now that he's gone. I'm really fucking scared I am going to hurt myself...because when I am alone and no one is on my mind like 24/7 I think about all my problems and I don't know how to handle them besides by cutting.

I can't breathe anymore, and I would do just about anything to get him back in my life. I NEED him here with me...