Today is better. It's longer, with more light.....Nothing to stress me, no work, no one to hurt me. My time, my ideas, interests....What are my interests? I have to say they're physical....fitness/body movement and ability, related to the mind...etc....

I'm reading a really good book that is describing healthy relationships....I think I'll be looking for those kinds of people from now on. Red flags won't be ignored anymore....:/ That's about it....

I'm thankful for these days off work. :) Thanks for the opportunity to post this. :)

Oh, and I made brownies. :)

Yippee for me! Today I got a third person to allow me to use his name as a reference on job applications. I'm one step closer to being ready to look for work!

Anger; prone to losing my temper, or snapping at anyone over the smallest thing. What else is new? >:(

Got my printer to the cabin. Got the cords to get it running. Brought along the paper and new ink cartridges - - - all the color ones.
FORGOT the Black one!
Almost....

depression is up and down weekends are hardest but my dog helps,, need to do some things going to play trumpet tomorrow and my GAY CHURCH OMG gays are christians too,, what a concept dealing with being separated from some one I love very much,, she is girlfriend and family all in one and accpepts my challenges not available due to the fact she is a doctor cannot retire yet, and so lady my dog is sleeping watching a golf match and then going to the store hope everybody took their meds and have support system losses and lack of family make it worse,, many just think stupidly or naively you can snap out of it gets worse as you get older and dont have as much to do or if you have no famlly or if you dont take meds for me I go to AA dont drink or smoke and try to help people but sometimes I just get in the pity pot and sleep it off , I bet some of you do too,, be well bmw

Beaumont r u the resident psychiatrist LOL just kidding so how is your depression BEAUMONT are u a born again

In a word " frustrated". My dog doesn't like me and my husband doesn't understand me. That in addition to a number of other health problems plaguing me at the moment : high blood pressure, asthma and anxiety. Anyone got any hints to deal with any of this stuff?? I have also been admitted to the ER twice in the span of a month for high blood pressure and asthma.

Ok positive....INHALE, GO!

I"m caught up on my housework.
I got sleep today.
I saw my puppy.
A sweet little girl is home from the hospital.
I have overtime for the next 3 weeks.
I'm a little more confident in my work.
I helped two people that I would normally avoid just by listening
I began to understand why they create so much drama for themselves (distracting, purging, medicating etc.)
I met someone who is doing healing work like I do, and understands that.
I made a friend. :)
He made a friend :)
There are no tornadoes here for at least 10 days.
I get paid and ahead on my bills tomorrow.
Even though I feel depressed, I know that my actions can still take care of me like I should.
I saw my puppy face today. She's well.
My hot chocolate is soothing.
Despite being off the diet & exercise wagon, I lost 2 pounds :D
I'm a bad mamajama.
Aaaaand, I have all the necessities including CENTRAL A/C. YES!!!! praise jesus.
Oh I was able to get supplies for my client

oops, puppy twice....she's that awesome, really. :)

Sort of sleepy & out of it. What day is it again? Thursday? And...it's still the month of May. Damn, when is September gonna get here!

Hey today has been ok. Got a pet sitting job this weekend. Tomorrow is our pool opening party. Going to be a chilly day. The weather can't make up its mind, hot one day chilly the next.

I am going to try to relax as best I can this weekend.

I hope you all have a good weekend
Lily

I had the day off and laid around at home doing nothing, back to work tomorrow which really sucks. I always feel so bad at work, I hate it. My anxiety goes through the roof. It makes me wish I was dead.

TREETOP TREMENDOUS, THANKS. AND YOU?

its been a dull day but good. it truly does get depressing. the site needs more people to bring in life and there's already plenty of goodness in each and everyone here. we just dont always see it that's why were here to seek others and enjoy their companionship.
how am I today? I'm feeling dull, like I've accomplished very little. on the other hand a little philosophical.
its a tough life I live cause I make it. this way. the depression is out of my control. what I have to show is eleven years old and handsomely sweet. then there's the beautiful flowers I got growing that always cheer me up just watching and waiting for them to blossom so beautifully, life.