Your mental conditions: mania, depression, anxiety, panic.... may stem from the sexual abuse you have experienced as a child. These are all interrelated. You are a victim of sexual abuse, and you are suffering from the horrors of that abuse. You need urgent medical help because your past experiences are affecting your present and future life, as well as affecting your schooling and your relationships with other people. You have become housebound, and afraid to meet anybody because you fear harm.

If I were you, I would tell my parents of the things that have happened to you, so that you can obtain urgent medical treatment. The person(s) who have done this to you will be held to account under the law. You are a minor, and who ever that hurt you must be prosecuted for sexual assault of a minor.

Your parents love you and protect you, and they will do everything they can to obtain medical treatment for you. There is no shame to admit that you have a mental illness, as it is a medical condition just like any other, such as heart disease, or kidney disease. The organ that is sick in you is your brain due to a chemical imbalance and past sexual trauma. As with any disease, mental illness can be treated with medications and psychotherapy. If your mental illness is due to your past sexual abuse, perhaps the State (government) can assist you with free medical treatment.

Don't be afraid to tell your parents, or your school teachers. They will help you to access to medical services and the authorities. There is no shame to disclose that you have been abused. You are the victim of the abuse, the shame is cast upon the perpetrator of the abuse/assault. Take courage and seek help from your parents. From what I can observe, no one will cast shame on you, nor should you feel embarrassed. Do not cower inside a dark room. You are a young girl with a bright future ahead of you. There are plenty of positive, happy life events for you to experience. Take care, and best wishes.

Sfay, If you can't bring yourself to talk to you parents right now, talk to a counselor at school. They may be able to help you, and it takes you a step closer to telling your parents. If it was me I would be telling my parents today. There is absolutely no shame in telling your parents what has happened to you. They love you and will do everything they can to get your help. They will be very thankful that you came to them. Together you can get on track to getting help. Take some deep breaths, gather up all your courage and go talk to you parents. Hugs to you.

Thanks a lot of for the support and advice but the sexual abuse was mild, by mild I mean it was child on child abuse and it was not rape but it has still tremendously affected my life and sexual life to be specific, I have gotten ptsd from it but no one can go to jail in this situation

Sexual offences involving a child, whether it is rape, indecent assault, act of indecency or aggravated assault of a child under 16 years, is an indictable crime in any jurisdiction. You did not give consent to the sexual abuse because you lack mental capacity to give consent due to your young age. The perpetrator of sexual abuse to a child, if found guilty, will be convicted and imprisoned for a term ranging from 2 years to 20 years depending on the severity of the sexual assault or abuse. It is immaterial whether the perpetrator of a sexual abuse is a child or an adult. A child who commits sexual abuse is still convicted within the children's court, but the severity of their sentence may be reduced due to their age.

Have you heard of Stockholm Syndrome? It is a psychological response that occurs when hostages or abuse victims bond with their captors or abusers, and give excuses or defend for their perpetrators when the abusers are captured. You are exhibiting straits of the Stockholm Syndrome right now.

If you fear of repercussion for your abuser once you have disclosed the abuse, you know yourself this fear is irrational, don't you? The perpetrator of a sexual abuse must be caught, and you should not assist him/her to get away with it because he/she will repeat the abuse on another child. Who is the abuser, may I ask? Is he/she someone you know, a family member/relative that you want to protect or conceal to avoid embarrassment to the family? This fear is irrational, and you should not feel guilty of disclosing the abuse to the authority.

You are only 16 years old, and from your own response, I can observe that you clearly lack mental capacity to distinguish what is right from wrong. Tell your parents or your teachers of the sexual abuse you have experienced. The adults will decide for you what is the best course of action to take. You don't have to worry about the consequences to the perpetrator upon your disclosure of the abuse. Let your parents, your school, the police and the Court make decisions to protect you.

It happened when I was about 6 or 7 years old, the child was only one year older than me and it was a girl, also She goes to my highschool and I see her and I’m not scared of her, we have said hi to eachother at school before but we aren’t friends, she is a family friend, but I don’t feel uncomfortable around her maybe it was because at the time I didn’t even know what she did was sexual abuse

But she did that when she was child so how can she be held accountable, also I had nightmares while I was in grade 2 ,3,4 and I never knew but it was probably because of the sexual abuse and I do struggle with pornography addiction

I think that you should let your parents know about the sexual abuse, and they will decide for you as what to do with the perpetrator. You are clearly suffering from the sexual abuse,; you have developed agoraphobia and unable to engage social relations with anybody else due to your fear of harm. You are suffering a mental illness consequent to the sexual abuse. You are too engrossed in protecting the perpetrator, you are unable to protect yourself or seek medical treatment to heal yourself. You are not mature enough to have the mental capacity to know right from wrong.

This is a very delicate subject. Child curiosity is not necessarily abuse. That is not the main issue though. The issue is your mental condition right now. It would take a professional to determine EXACTLY what is causing you the problems you have now.

I say tell your parents that you have what you know to be social anxiety, depression and panic attacks and you want to talk to a doctor. If you cannot talk to your parents, the doctor is the best choice anyway.

Something you said suggests there are other problems with 'family'.

"that would definitley cause more problems for me and my family,"

(more problems)

You are stuck because there is no one to 'talk to' about your condition. You could begin by calling a teen crisis line or talking to a school counselor. The important thing is to talk about yourself to someone who can help (Doctor, therapist, counselor).

You are suffering greatly ... for someone your age. It's important you make some kind of contact with a qualified person.

just sending a lot of hugs and strength your way...

when i was younger and living with my parents things were really really bad for me and i never told them because i thought it would make things worse. and i still believe that to an extent. talking to them wouldn’t have helped me. but... but there ARE people who can help you. your teachers.. there are hotlines out there to help kids in tough spots. if your parents can’t or won’t help you there are still people who can.

here to talk if you need xxx

Also just to be clear I was not curious in now way, I was forced to do something I didn’t want to do where no adults were able to help even after repeatedly saying no, child on child sexual abuse has happened before and at first I didn’t know it was abuse but then another women who went through the same thing explained it, so it was sexual abuse

Sfay, you had disclosed the abuse to an adult, who explained to you it was sexual abuse because you were forced to do things that you repeatedly objected. I agree that it would not be childhood curiosity if you objected to being abused. Who was this other woman that you had disclosed the abuse to? She explained to you that the act forced on you was sexual abuse. What did this woman do for you after your disclosure? Did she offer help? Did you accept her help and/or advice?

The more you have disclosed, the more I think that you need professional help (doctor, psychotherapist, counselor). This kind of subject should not be disclosed on a public online forum like this. You need to discuss this subject with your parents and other health professionals, who can help you to treat this mental condition.

It was online I’ve never told someone in person, and she didn’t do much she just said some kind things but I do plan on telling an adult or someone in person, I’m just trying to overcome some shame

sfay, you are right, telling your parents in person is the right thing to do. You must not feel shame as you are the victim. That evil girl who did this to you ought to feel shame and remorse for what she had done. Take courage and disclose this abuse to your parents, who love you and will do anything in their power to protect you.

I agree with Andromeda,

What Andromeda said. You deserve no shame for what happened. I hope your parents listen, and if needing backup, school counselor could help back you up.