You're not alone...PM me if you want to talk to someone

Honey....I'm So Sorry you are feeling so badly personally and about your life. I want you to understand a lot of what you are feeling is Very Normal....hormones, high school years and wanting to fit in, being a young adult, and sometimes being treated as a child...and the ever looming "Oh My Good Lord" what am I going to be, to do, when I grow up...college, work, life etc...16 is such a challenge! Also consider the time of year...exams, holidays and change of seasons...give yourself a break....meaning to reduce expectations so as to avoid un-needed stress...hugs as you process...I can remember when I was your age, I'd lay down everyday after school while my mom watched soap operas just to be near her 'she didn't get me, my moods, nor emotionally available' and go to sleep....I'm 63 now, my son is close to 21 (yes very Late Life baby) and on my own again, I also have bp disorder, so I too am trying to create "a Life" now....look for things that are simple that make you smile, if you can, maybe volunteer at an animal shelter to take dogs for walks and pet cats...animals an be a Huge Comfort when I feel alone....they just love you with no conditions attached...well maybe one...my cat Chachi yells at me to feed her! My Best to you! ml

Sorry you are feeling this way. Have you talked with your parents about how you are feeling? You could try talking to your school counselor who may be able to help you. Mlrp853 has brought up some good points. Du.ring the teenage years you go through so many changes in your life and have to make some decisions that will effect your future. I remember feeling much the same same way when I was a teenager and often felt like I was invisible..

You sound like you might feel really alone, lacking a supportive community and open-hearted friends right now. I've found my connections to play a big role in my outlook, and to have people who can be your encouragement and model purpose and hope when it seems bleak has been a key for me. Even if you're not religious I encourage you to go to a church that you think you might feel comfortable at and talk to the pastor for free. Make sure it's confidential, but he/she might be able to get you an older lady who can mentor you and be your “sponsor” friend. That would be huge.

If your parents work the chances are nearly 100% that their job benefits cover counselors. It can be hard to let parents know you want to see a counselor because they'll undoubtedly question you, but just tell them that you want to learn some communication and coping skills for when things get stressful. That you've heard that counselors are basically just teachers and you'd like to learn some new ways of thinking and finding success when stuff gets overwhelming. A counselor can help you chart a path. Plus, through mental health benefits it's super cheap. Also, Google DBT and CBT. They're types of counseling techniques with tons of info online.

If you want to PM me I'll try to help you. I understand what you're going through and the brainfog can be blinding. There's a way out. Find some beautiful pictures online right now and take a mini-vacation. I'd also encourage you to start an art or portfolio of some sort (job, “future visions,” role models, healthy self articles, etc. - Pinterest.com is great for dreaming). Again, PM me. I'd like to get to know you.

All these comments really help. Honestly I'm glad some people actually care. Means a lot